It's Snowing.

Snowing somewhere in Ireland. Harap-harap snow tak turun dekat Egypt ni.

Lately rasa nak menaip.biasalah, syndrome nak dekat exam. Rasa nak shoppingla, nak makan luar, nak tgk movie, nak maen game. tapi exam kali ni takde la rasa nk maen game. da muak kot. nk shopping ,n makan luar da tak mampu.

Tadi,jalan-jalan tgk blog orang. da jadi routine fariez tgk blog-blog yang update. tak pun tgk blog org y singgah kat shoutbox fariez. kalau rs menarik, fariez spend jugak mase baca, kalau rajin frz komen. kalau tak menarik, fariez baca tajuk je la.

Ada dua blog y fariez baca. Dua-dua cerita pasal snow. winter la katakan.
yang beza nya.. sorang ni cerita pasal kebenaran yang die discover : salji ni teruk sebenarnya, nampak je cantik tp tak best pun.Sebagai kesimpulan die benci snow.

sorang lagi, menerima kedatangan winter dan salji putih sebagai tanda kebesaran ALLAH, dan buatkan die berasa kagum dgn keindahan ciptaan-Nya.Copy paste sikit dr blog tu..

 "Manusia membuka mata, melihat ke luar tingkap dan tersenyum panjang. Salju datang lagi, salju lebih tebal. Ada yang lupa untuk berterima kasih kepada Tuhan yang menurunkannya, lupa memuji kebesaran Dia."

Sedikit sebanyak tersuntik jugak hati ini untuk sama-sama memuji ALLAH

oh well,semua orang ade opinion sendiri :)

P/s: Semoga kita-kita ni tak lupa bersyukur

I'm not spoil.

I'm not spoil, just well taken care of .

Masa darjah 4 fariez penah bergaduh dgn kawan baik, Melissa, budak india yang cantek dan pandai. Dia cakap Fariez anak manja, terus Fariez tarik rambut die kuat-kuat, n she did the same! After tu die pindah sekolah.

Bila da besar, fikir-fikir balik.. kenapa nak rasa offended sgt bila kene ejek anak manja? Anak manja mungkin la offensive to guys.yeah mungkin. Da besar rasa mcam nothing is wrong by being manja.and the truth is mmg sy manja dgn mak pun.kalau tak manja-manja dgn mak, nak manja dgn siapa? BF? err, that does not sound right!

Mak mmg manjakan kitorang by her own way.orang cakap anak mnje ni selalu nye spoil? erm.ntah.

Sebenarnya frz rindu  kat mak.. Mak asyik busy la plak sekarang ni. susah betul nk dapat cakap n sembang lama-lama. Mak mesti ade banyak cerita.akak pun ade bannnyak cerita ni! tiket balik Malaysia da la tgh murah! buat Fariez rs nk book tiket untuk winter holiday ni.haish. tapi da janji dgn mak tahun ni tak nk kerap balik Malaysia, n nak study betul-betul.Mak pesan suruh pergi jalan-jalan keliling dunia.

kalau nk buat jahat terigt kat Mak. Mesti luluh hati mak kalau tau anak die ni, malas belajar, ponteng kelas, n maen games.huwaaa~ nak nangis je rasa (bcause not being good enough last year) i better stop . papai!

Nani, i love u!

Nani! tgk la ni. :) Konon-konon nk buat surprise kan?? kikiki..Mula-mula kan, Nani nk buat surprise kt fariez Tapi kan da sebulan lebih, Nani pun give up, pastu terus tnya "fariez, ko ade dapat surat tak?"

obviously, takde surat pun sampai kat rumah, yang ade surat bank je (berkepuk-kepuk)

"Fariez, sbbnrnya aku pos something .tp lupa tulis Alexandria kat alamat rumah kau.Agak-agak sampai tak?"Masa tu Nani sgt tension dgn diri sendiri.hahaha."Fairuz tak cakap pun Alexandria"Nani. jgn rsau eh Nani, nnt aku gi cari kat Pejabat Pos.so da kurang  surprise da la kan.

 Pastu Nani konon-konon la kan, tak nak bitau die pos ape.Nani just pesan, jgn excited sgt, sbb bende biasa-biasa je.Tanda harge pun aku lupa cabut.haha.Pastu Hari yang laen, Nani tnya frz tgh buat ape?

Mula-mula fariez lampi kot.
"Nani cakap, Fariez tak yah la buat planner tu, buang masa je.."
takleh2, aku kene buat jugak.kalau tak selagi itu aku rasa hidup tak teratur.( Fariez dgn nani selalunya berfikiran sama, tp pelik pulak nape kali ni die tak sokong ape y frz buat.oo maybe sbb da dewasa, duduk pun jauh-jauh, pemikiran pun jd berbeza)

"Fariez buat la minggu depan"
Apsal lak minggu depan? sbb minggu depan hari Planner sedunia!
oo yeke?? erm.. takpela..nk buat skng jugak, alang-alang tgh free ni.

Fariez!! buat la bende laen!!
masa tu rasa mcam, eh apesal ntah nani ni,semacam je..

muahaha! Ko pos kat aku planner ke Nani??!!
ko ni lagi nk tanya!
Cess! Hari Planner sedunia konon!!Hahaha fariez pun percaya je kan!

Tak sangka kn even jarak memisahakan kitorang, but still instinct Nani masih kuat seperti selalu!
Tau-tau je Fariez nak planner like badly!! huwaa~ i love u Nani!

Lepas 2 bulan, which is today baru sampai! cool je eja Shatby cenggitu n betul la takde tulis Alexandria. Wey! No rumah pun salah!! hahaha Alhamdulillah sampai jugak kn :) . (walaupun tahu, orang pejabat pos tu da bukak dulu )

 Inside the envelope. eh sahabat sejati ku :)

Nani cakap die ade tulis smthg.punya la Faries carik kat front page , n last page. takde pun..pastu selak2 page -page yang laen. okie, ni page pertama. *Touching * Ade banyak page laen : hari frz tunang, hari aniversarry nani n cai, n birthday Fariez!! heee suka sgt!

(Nani,paham tak mcm mne aku tahan taknk bitau kau.nampak je kau kt Skype td) 

Mak nani penah cakap,

" Fariez.. kalau Fariez lelaki, mesti korang duorang da kawen,Cai takde chance la "

Fairuz n Cai ade di tempat kejadian. Ayah Nani mengiyakan je ape yang Mak Nani cakap.Kitorang?frz n nani cm ketawa-ketawa

Eid mubarak (2nd day)

2nd day, pagi-pagi lagi da bersiap-siap nak beraya! Mula-mula raya rumah Liza (no pic was taken). Lpas tu bergerak ke rumah Paan, ade open house Ronggeng Rokiah. (siap buat event invitation kt fb, maka wajibla dtg ) Menyesal tau sape yang tak dtg.

ini among early birds.Early bird get the worm, but in our case, early birds got much option in chosing the dishes. :)

Nana n Liza enjoy Soto n i prefer Nasi impit n lontong!u see, Paan punya lontong is super tempting n delicious

The Foods : we have here Soto which u just cant resist, Rendang, Nasi impit, kuah kacang,super delicious lontong,cinnamon donuts, karipap pusing, puding/ agar-agar yang mcm-macam jenis..and the list goes on. banyak kan diorang masak!

Oh my.. These sweeties are my favourite! (tak sempat tanya y kuning tu ape sbnrnya ) diorng cakap cm agar2, ade ckp puding, ade cakap dadih. what ever it is,bende alah ni mmg buat semua org ulang berkali-kali ke meja makanan!

oh yeah, u guys are the best companions! (Liza, Hunny, Nanaain ) ( Baju Nana cantek tau, n i guess Nana looks very pretty and sweet dgn baju kurung ni.ke sebab tak penah nmpak Nana wearing brownish baju kurung )

Lama jugak dekat rumah Paan, pastu kitorang pergi 3rd house. Rumah Hunny! ( also no pic was taken) berehat rumah Hunny puas-puas pastu bergerak ke rumah ke empat. Rumah Atun.1st time nk pergi umah Atun. excited la jugak. :P

tak lambatkn nk wish selamat pengantin baru buat Atun n Fadel :) Kitorang tak makan sgt kat rumah Atun, banyak bersembang je. Sembang pasal ape lagi kan kan.. :P opss. 

Atun wajib duduk center :) sampai magrib kitorang duduk atun. itu pun tak abes embang lagi :P. tapi segan la, duk umah atun lama-lama.Lepas solat je terus berangkat pulang! Igtkn nk balik rumah, sekali Nana cakap ade satu rumah lagi. rumah last. Rumah Fazila.

Menu special : Dinner dgn Nasi kerabu dgn ayam percik ( chef Fazila masak) What a perfect day! Perhaps..T_T (Time kat rumah fazila ni la, kitorang plan konon-konon nk buat surprise tu )

To sum up, hari raya kedua ni, mmg happening sangat! n i guess Hani,Nana n Liza would agree that it will permanently remains as er.. sweet memory??

Eid mubarak (1st day)

 open house rumah syuhada, jumpe baby haris.ouch ur cute face stole my heart!

sehari before raya - tunggu hardes smbil tgk gelagat org arab.

pagi raya ,ade jugak org dtg beraya umh kitorang. we got nasi impit, rendang, puding n triffle.

tak sempat lagi nk call mak nk bitau, akak berjaya buat nasi impit. mak risau sangat bila fariez bitau frz tak bawak nasi impit adabi.

lepas solat raya, fariez melayan anak-anak bawab.er tak sure sape layan sape.

diorang cakap je (in arabic) kalau frz tak paham. diorang ulang je. gonna miss them.

more pics of them.

da penat layan diorang, fariez siap-siap pergi asrama MARA. ade jamuan makan.

pergi bukan sbb nk makan, tp sbb nk jumpe diorang-diorang ni.(my lovely ex-housemates)

indah nya persahatan ini.syahdu betul bila ingat kenangan 4 tahun duduk serumah :")

Lepas tu balik rumah baru Sarah. banyak betul sarah masak untuk raya.

ada kuah kacang ( my favourite) ade mee kari, mee rojak. sampai malam duduk rumah Sarah.

sebelum balik rumah singgah rumah Nana.ade nasi minyak,ayam msk merah, daging hitam, nasi impit, rendang,kuah kacang sume. mantap :)

makan lagi..huhuhu

mmg tak study langsung.

expect the worst

sometimes in our life, we decide to expect the worst.
sometimes we have no choice but to have a bad thoughts.

for me myself, when the worst thing that worried me much did happened, and came like a combo meals with all the bad thought that i previously had in mind,Gosh! for god sake it didn't make me feel any better!

expecting the worst,is just a superficial feeling, cause deeply inside, i know well how high my hopes n assumptions are. I want this particular things to be the best.Please oh bad thought thinking .pleasee.. just stay as thought, do not ever approach me in real life.

Now that i'm traumatize to know being in a worst situation in life is just another option.
gosh, how i realize expecting something worst to happen really does not work, perhaps for me.
It might help heighten the joy when something good happen,but it does not act like a cushion to comfort me when falling from high.

like seriously, mentally prepared for the worst outcome is not helping!

so what's next??

Allah, please guise me, please guide us.

Gave mercy for me, gave mercy for us.

strengthen my Iman, and those surround me.

soften their hearts and heart of me.

Forgive me for the bad thought i've,

clear my mind from any impurities

Allah,

Please help me ALLAH, for i'm  very weak.

for i'm still afraid of what others people would think of me.

DKA ( sing along)

Fariez just type semula the lyric, to make it easier for u guys to sing along.
(well, if only u consider this song as a song)
happy holidays studying guys!

If a kid shows up in ketoacidosis,
u better go ahead n make the diagnosis
oftype 1 diabetes right now,
and in this case u better know how

to quickly get the kid out of this mess
cuz DKA can lead to death
grab a UA and a glucose finger prick,
n get your blood gases really quick

U should assess dehydration firstly
cuz the kid's whole body is extremely thirsty
but to keep the Glasgow score from getting low
U'd better give your fluids really slow.
If u correct too fast u'll cause edema
around the brain ,which may seem a minor problem,
but it's NOT.
cuz that brain is the only one she's got.

with DKA
some kids will say
they did'nt know they had DM

Believe what they say
cuz DKA
is the presenting complaint in 25% of them

u should also draw a set of lytes,
BUN,creatinine, and CBC, right?!
Check the anion gap, i will be high
and quickly consider other reasons why
the anion gap might be headed toward the sky
the"MUDPLES" mnemonic is worth a try
Check the blood for beta-hydroxybutyrate
and confirm the level of phosphate.

And know that total pottasium decreases
due to all the diuresis
even if serum pottasium looks high,
Due to acidemia, there's a shift
of pottasium out of cells and ultimately into piss.
Ketone n sugar draw too much water into the filtrate,
and the water drags sodium,K, n phosphate.

with DKA
u must wacth K+
n u'd better
check the other lytes too

with DKA
the signs kids display
are here for
 ur quick review~

Kussmaul respiration,
orthostatic hypotension
and distinctly fruity breath
vomitting n nausea
signs of coma
give the kid inslin to prevent death!

We've throughly discussed fluid repletion
but an insulin drip is required from completion
of correcting all the signs of DKA
As u give insulin, u should see pH
Slowly rise if u give it times
Don't give bicarb, that's a crime!
Just drip the insulin and keep checking the bicarb
it should climbs if u don't let your guard
down

With DKA,
There's a low pH
and a compensatory drop in CO2

To make DKA
just go away
u know exactly what to do

Give insulin
and run fluids in
and monitor for neuro change

U'll save the kid
and know what u did
was rescue him from pain

Ewah-ewah bercuti!

1.Happy holidays Alexandrian Medical team! Rasanya semua orang patut bersyukur dapat cuti seminggu sempena Hari Raya Haji, kat Malaysia tak dapat kot cuti seminggu. kalau negara laen,ntah-ntah time raya kene jugak pergi lectures/classes n all.ye tak? maka ucaplah alhamdulillah :)

2.Semalam balik dari seminar ibadah pesakit,da magrib da waktu tu (berjalan kaki ke rumah) jumpa 3 couple,adek-adek, yang lelaki baju basah (baru lepas mandi pantai kot). berjalan dgn muka ewah-ewah innocent nya.ish2.

3.Fariez sepatutnya spend kan masa cuti ni bercuti ke Hurgada!! tapi lepas timbang tara dgn benda laen, which is study.fariez terpaksa tarik diri. sangat berat hati.huwaa~ dan fariez akan jeles dgn diorang-diorang y pergi. tapi bila di fikir-fikir kan, the rest yang pergi tu, mmg semuanya jenis pick up, u know, jenis genius kan kan.study last minute will not be a problem to them.saya ni?? tak boleh.. so bai bai, have fun la korang! fariez kene make sure yang fariez betul2 study cuti ni.huh. kalau tak mesti fariez myesal sangat2.

4.rasanya ni 1st time raya kat Mesir tanpa sambutan.Like previously, every year PCI (Perubatan Cawangan Iskandariah ) akan adakan majlis sambutan hari raya, dgn tema yang berbagai, ada jamuan makan, ada persembahan, ade games sume.Pelik nya, kenapa tahun ni takde?? can anyone explain?

5.Raya thaun ni 17 november eh?? seriusly? OMG!
kebetulan sangat.. Birthday Mr Firuz hari raya puasa, Birthday Naim hari raya haji. eh eh.

6.Selalunya kalau la fariez give up, fariez akan cari org untuk share dgn org tu apa y fariez rasa. n selalu nya, akan okie la.. tapi 2 hari lepas, orang yang selalu bagi kata-kata semangat kat fariez pulak give up, dan fariez tak dapat nk tolong dia. rasa helpless sgt. Pastu sedar, ALLAH kan ada.

 "awak jgn give up okie! just keep going,slow-slow pun takpe.pastu kita doa sama-sama, mintak ALLAH mudahkan.hokay! *hug*"

7. Cikgu bahasa arab saya, Asma sgt comel tau.lawa.cantek.tinggi. kalau sy lelaki, mesti da jatuh hati dgn Asma. ah, boleh ke mcm tu?

8. tak suka lah dgn surgery department. suka-suka je last minute nk tukarkan orang msuk elective oncology! tau tak fariez da berangan dari dulu-dulu lagi nk main-main dgn endoscope! kecewa. hancur harapan. da la fariez jenis tak suka bila kene paksa-paksa ni.haih.

9.okie nk tgk ANTM. aza kate ade kejutan.

10.Tkay da dapat Gold medal untuk Zombie. oh tahniah cik housemate!

 okie bai bai. Kol sanah wa ento tayebeen!

happy birthday kak Fatin !

 P/s: birthday kak fatin diraikan oleh ahli rumah dan kawan-kawan terdekat yang sudi dtg di Pizza Queen,Green Plaza. (gambar last takde kne mgena dgn birthday kak Fatin, saje upload ;)

Becoming a Pediatrician

once said that the elective course that we choose should be in line with our desire profession or interest, u know like example, i'm imaging myself as a paediatrician in future, so i may choose an elective course that related.(if there's any) . Elective course gave us an oppotunitie to explore more and get extra knowlegde bout the course that we've choosen.

And it should encourage u to attend every class of elective course. Because u are the one who are eager to be in that elective course.Isn't?? but why on earth, some of students escape from the class??  it's not that i have a problem with that,i don't mind pun.cuma rasa mcm, wa~ overnye kau ponteng smpai berhari2,tak rasa bersalah eh??

anyway, fariez pilih Neonatal Care as my 1st elective course for this semester. Some may want to know, how bout the classes..so far okie la.. got silibus n timetable, nampak lebih systematic compare to Radiology class which i took last year. cuma , class sepatutnya start pukul 9, but usually ( i mean the last few days ) the class started one hour late(more or less). itu menguji kesabaran jugak la.but starting next week, i think ,that will no longer be a problem, bcause the Doc allow us to go around the NICU, and make a noenatal examinations as much as we like.that's just great!!

This neonate was the 1st case we were xpose to.It's break our hearts when we saw this poor baby. berat betul ujian buat bayi kecil ni.She's on a battlefield at a very early stage of life.Dr Hassan said, even if she could survive, she'll facing a neurodevelopmental problems.Again, my heart broke into pieces :(

very tiny lil fingers. ( grasping reflex present )

Muka baby ni suci sgt! cant stop comparing myself with them. macam, aahh, banyak nye dosa-dosa compare dgn korang-korang y putih bersih suci murni ni.(i really hope they grown up to be a good person!)

12pm, is feeding time, the most exciting session  i guess :) bukan baby yang excited, org yang nk bagi susu y excited. the pic above as a prove :P

this is during resuscitation session, done on newly born baby.Muka baby tu subhanallah, mmg sama sebijik macam muka mak die.kagum betul dgn ciptaan Allah.

 :) :) :) ( senyum banyak2)

Saadah, Husan, Mizah, n Amira.it was a very tiring day, we were standing through all the session, but yet mereka masih mampu untuk tersenyum. :)

that's me! singing a soothing lullaby while feeding the premature baby :) btw, he has a very shiny beautiful eyes! I adore his eyes very much.

i cant help to not telling u guy bout this baby. she been there for a quite sometimes,well actually, she's ready to be discharged. but nobody wants them.how sad! oh, lupe nk ckp, die ade kembar.their mum ran away, and left them. sedey betul.sgt :( ramai org yang nak anak kembar, boleh pulak mak die tinggalkn diorang.till the procedure done, they will afterwards given to orphanage.

Bukan kah kita sepatutnya bersyukur?

Hello Inspiron.

i may sound a lil bit emotional so please ignore. or better do not read through this entry.

Yesterday, i'd spend more than 5 hours arguing with those egyption dekat Suk Komputer. urgh! i know it's not good to hate people, but i can handle it no more (some advise; jgn benci kat orang ) tapi tak boleh, rasa benci jugak.maybe i need a powerful detergent or clorox or something y boleh bersihkn hati. Bencil laaa. "Kenapa org arab ni suka menipu? kenapa eh??ape diorang igt duit haram tu bagus la?ee yuck!!"

Rasa traumatize betul, especially with those sweet talker Egyptian salesman. blwek!
tapi sekarang Fariez da okiela, totally free from adrenaline rush. The 5 hours of arguing worth me a new Black Inspiron Mini.I'd bought a gorgeous red Inspiron mini last week, and just discover that the keyboard is somehow arranged wrongly, straightaway i rush to the store where i bought it.

As the matter of fact,i'm really not sure how to respond with the salesman.Shud i give him a smile n complaint gently, or just come with a plain angry face( bcause he seem to gave me a rejected laptop,yup, that's purely what i had in mind ),but then i decide to act naturally.

The saleman actually laugh at me for complaining bout the laptop which triggers my anger.Die kate takde orang nk guna symbol ~ , symbol < ..mase tu, i was like, huh?? bukan ke awak sepatutnya gave me some empathy?or shud not? da la mende tu tak okie.pastu gelakkn fariez sbb guna those symbol. eeei!

Then,angrily i order him to fix it or else i want a new laptop. So there it goes.. 5 hours of trying to fix the laptop with me trying to convince him that he will never be able to fix it. u see ,obviously, the keyboard was manufacture wrongly! ( trust me,u do not want to know what exactly the problem of that freaking keyboard, because it's way too complicated to be explained n to be understand )

the time is ticking n the day is getting dark, and it's now the time for the store to be closed.. tapi tak siap2 jugak betulkan..da reinstall windows,software n all pastu fomat n re install again, what's more??huh.

well,thank god that finally he surrenders n give me a new laptop.

Lepas ni, if anyone wants to buy a Laptop kat Suk Komputer, i suggest, fikirla dua kali, it's better if u can buy it from somewhere else.somemore,kalau nk beli laptop, make sure u bring someone y mmg tahu pasal computer with u.

Tq ALLAH, i know i can never thank YOU enough.
Thanks, Aza, Nik, Nani, Fairuz n Tkay for being caring n understanding.

oh! one of my dreams comes true , baru sedar.