left me alone with my thought

i guess it's normal to have an irrational thought when u are not in a good mood.

(geee, geram gile dgn arab ni, fyi, as am starting to write on here, the arab kat floor atas, tgh cuba pecahkn rumah die.batu bata boleh pulak jatuh dekat balkoni tempat ampain bju rumah fariez! the batu are huge one!geram nyer.da la batu tu hempap pokok bunga fariez.double my geram. but i can do nothnig. i dont even dare to look at it, as im afraid those batu kene kepala.huh...ape da.boleh pulak ko campak2 je batu tu kebawah ni kn.bijak)

huh.bile tgh takde mood,rs macam fragile gila,even a tiny thing is possible to trigger my anger.pastu rs cm nk marah je.bluek.pastu rase nak dgr satu album meteora ulang2 bnyak kali..okie la tu, daripada berfikir nk buat bende2 yang pelik.. like my friend,she did ask me: nape aku rs cam nk terjun bangunan, rase nak keluar dr kete mase kete tgh gerak laju2..T_T ' dasyat. ( i not sure actually, can this be categorizes as irrational thinking?aa.who cares anyways,korang bukan nye behavioral psychologist)

talking bout psycology..has anyone had a test of being bipolar?(actually, that's one of irrational thinking that i have) i thought that im insane.cannot barely have a well of mind thinking.so i did took a bipolar test..thank god im not bipolar.im just having a mild depression.i guess.

bile nk dekat exam je mood swing.grr..suspected culprit behind this swinging mood: STRESS kot

sorry for taking your time to read this crappy things of me,deep in my heart,i pray that your day ahead will be much better than me.thanks for reading.

oh yes, if anyone of you would like to gimme a free counsel.u can PM me at YM: connie_cayang.
(u are not allowed  to leave any comment on this entry)

update: da okie da hilang da mood geram ngn arab, sbb isteri bawab datang sapu2 balkoni.

Clinical Round - Orthopedic

On the way nak pergi ward

View dr tingkap ward

1st Case :Patient complaint of pain and swelling of Left Hip Joint 6months ago.

was diagnose as Septic Arthritis, and undergo operation to drain the sepsis,

but still having the pain and having difficulty in weight bearing activities.

By Examination: the patient have true shortening of one limb, and having antalgic gait

Dx:Chronic Inflammation of hip joint,suspect TB

2nd Case: A patient stepping on Bomb.the xray revealed ..

that the calcaneus is loss.da berkecai.with tarsal bone fractures

management: amputation. If he is not a prisoner, maybe the surgeon will try harder,

finding other way rather than amputate him.

Perasan tanggan die kene gari?

Tengok tingkap lagi...

                                             

A patient with external Fixator.

From Afar...

kasi gergaji sama itu cast.

A patient with Skin Traction.

Sebelah tingkap..

Tengok tingkap kali ketiga..by looking at this pic,da leh rs bahang musim panas kn.

Nota terakhir: In Transverse Short Oblique Fracture(#) of the Mid 3rd of Femur

we used Kuntscher Nail.

Double Trouble 2 Concert

Tarikh: 5 June

Masa: 8.30 pm

Tempat: Stadium Larkin,JB

Dalam mimpi je la nk pegi.

Nway,my favourite song ever! <3
(sape suka lagu ni jugak, angkat tangan..)

Sex Education for young generation.

Sorry la,Fariez awal-awal lagi tak setuju pasal Sex Education ni. nak ajar tentang  kebaikan dan keburukan sex kat sekolah?so that incident Buang anak yang da jadi cerita biasa kat Msia ni berkurang..well,in any way,I dont think that it will work.tapi, kalau sape-sape ade statistic yang menunjukkan sex education can lower the percentage of buang anak boleh la share ye.kalau ade.

Fariez  tak dapat nk bayangkan,ade cikgu ajar pasal sex..pastu anak-anak murid, "tula cikgu sex saya"
tak pun, budak-budak ni, balik rumah, duk revise matapelajaran sex.hohoho
tak pun, budak-budak ni duk buat main-main mase cikgu ngajar.cikgu mane la yang sanggup ngajar??
tak pun lepas abes kelas,diorng buat study group lelaki ngn perempuan bincang pasal sex..ish3.

Secondly,mengalakkan penggunaan condom/buat vending machine yang jual condom so that org tak segan nk beli. huh? Merepek la!Macam sakit kepala makan panadol,treating the symptom rather than treating the cause.I'm totally against it!tak sokong.tak sokong.tak sokong langsung. kalau bg kondom free,mungkinla boleh kurangkan kes anak luar nikah. tapi ape guna nya kalau kurangkan kes anak luar nikah, tapi kes zina bertambah-tambah??Maka, apa pointnya kita nak kurangkan kes anak luar nikah?

(Actually,this entry is regarding Helmi punye post, nk komen panjng2,erm,segan la jugak :P takpela,i have my own blog, baek fariez tulis kat sini je.)

Satu lagi orang cakap, nak elakkn zina, kene kawen awal.amboi-amboi.Ni pun fariez tak setuju jugak sgt. kalau kawen, da sure sgt ke diorng da tak berzina?Da immune dari buat bende ni?banyak je kes skng suami/isteri buat hubungan luar.

Sume pun Fariez tak setuju.Ape je solusi yang Fariez setuju??

Obviously,ISLAM la solusi nya, teguhkan la hubungan dgn Allah.Fariez suka dgr SaifulIslam cakap, amik la Islam secara menyeluruh.barula sempurna. Solat lima waktu,tutup aurat, jaga pergaulan,tundukkan pandanagn..kalau la, kuat pegangan agama, setulus hati mencintai Islam.mesti boleh je nak atasi masalah ni.

:) Rebuilding Family bonding pun penting.. logik la kan, kalau ade mak ayah yang sayang anak-anak dia, sampai ke hati anak tuk nk memalukan keluarga dgn aktiviti tak senonoh ni.Mesti nk buat pape teringt muka mak ayah.Pastu dapat pulak Ayah yang pantang tgk anak keluar malam, mesti nak tanya, "Cik Koni(pangilan fariez kat rumah)nk pegi mane? keluar dengan sapa? pukl berapa nk balik?" "lagi sejam Baba nak akak da ade kat rumah"  kalau dengan lelaki tak boleh calling2.budak lelaki kan selalu call rumah.ayah fariez selalu marah, die cakap" Jangan bagi alasan, lelaki tu kacau la, apela,kalau akak tak melayan takde nye die nak call rumah"muahaha. ni terbaek la.

Okie, let's be serius..Sebenarnya,Fariez risau kot pasal bende ni..1st of all, of course la kat diri sendiri,Im not an angle ke ape ke,sedar je diri sendiri tak sempurna bnyak bende yang Fariez kene betulkan.Nauzubillah, takmo la terjebak dgn bende ni.(tapi fariez tak rase kalau diri kita serba kekurangan,boleh jadi alasan untuk tak membincangkan/memikirkan masalah ni.)

2ndly, rsau dekat kawan2, semoga takdela antara mereka yang produce anak tak sah taraf.Rsau kat adik-adik,akak selalu nya biar je adik2 buat ape pun,keluar lewat malam,keluar tak tnye detail2 dgn siapa,akak nk je jadi macam Baba tegas.tanya macam-macam.tapi akak taknk adek2 rase terkonkong..tapi betulke cara akak ni..?

Last but least, risau macam manela suatu hari nanti,bila Fariez sendiri yang jadi ibu.nk jaga anak2 sendiri...(boleh kot letak sound efek cengkerik kat sini.)

Tapi yang pasti,Bila Fariez jd ibu,Education tentang sex bukanla perkara pertama yang perlu di ketenghhkan sebagai solusi.Itu yang pasti :)

Senyumlah.

Boleh ke nk meluahkan perasaan kat sini??

Hari ni Fariez start Posting Orthopedic,kat Hospital Nariman,tak la jauh sgt, tp jauh jugak la, sbb selama ni, posting kat hopsital2 yang boleh je nk pegi jalan kaki.Hospital Nariman ni kene naek teksi,3 egyption pound kene bayar.pg td pakcik teksi mintak 4 egyption pound.Hospital tu ade dua bangunan, satu bangunan baru, and bagunan lame..bangunan lama tu, mmg nampak old-school sgt,macam bangunan bersejarah..nnt bile berkesempatan Fariez share pic Hospital tu kat sini eh.

Selalunya kalau hari 1st posting,kelas start lambat, Doc datang lambat.. tapi kat Orthopedic department tadi, Doc datang awal,Lecture start sharp at nine, siap amik kedatangan lagi!Mase amik kedatangan tu Doc sebut nama sorang2, fariez kalau time-time sebut name ni, mmg fariez concentrate je dgr, takut nama terlepas, tak pun nnt sume org pandang2 kita kalau kita tak sedar Doc panggil nama.Bile turn name Fariez( die pagil ikut urutan),die skip, kire die tak sebutla nama Fariez.aahhh da cuak da..mungkin die tertinggal.harap2 die ulang balik  nama2 tu. waktu die ulang, still takde nama Fariez..

Nak tahu ape y come out 1st to my mind, rase macam..ke fariez tak layak masuk Orthopedic, kene repeat Surgery dulu baru leh masuk. yelah, Orthopedic kan, bawah surgery department..sedey sgt mase tu..n panic.hahaha. kalau la korang tgk muke frz masa tu..(nik pndng belakang mse tu,ntah2 die pasan muka panik fariez )

Alhamdulillah,the lecturer pas2kan kertas kedatangn, rupanya ade je nama fariez kat kertas tu, siap da tick present lagi, just die tak sebut td.haih, kasi cuak sama wa ja la!

Sepanjang kelas td, alhamdulillah takde rasa mengantuk atau tertido, itu yang penting, sebab kalau fariez ngntuk or tdo dlm kelas, mesti balik rumah Fariez takde mood.tak pun rase cm serabut sgt-sgt.I hate being a sleepy head in class.(tht's why fariez akan make sure tdur cukup sebelum gi kls) so hari ni mood sepatutnye okie la kn,sbb tak tdo kat kelas..Tapi still, fariez rs cm something..cam tak bersemangat, cam malas nk buat pape.nk layan persaan je.

Tak tahu la nape..pikir2 balik.. maybe sebab banyak kerja-kerja fariez yang tertangguh kot. kerja-kerja yang melibatkan orang laen..

1.taknk aa cte kat sini..kang ade y mara fariez :P

2.Surat nk apply taknk repeat Surgery. Anas suruh Fariez buat, (bgus betul ade student representative yang mcm ni, die yang rsau lebih kat anak-anak buah die) tapi, Fariez tak reti buat.. :( Anas suruh contact Zack,(nath sape la budak ni, Fariez tak kenal) Anas kate buat la surat dgn die, pastu nnt Anas tolong ckpkn kat Doc, Perhaps tula yang Fariez faham, tapi Fariez contact Zack, Zack ckp siapkan surat,die da siap da die punye, esok kite jumpe Doc sama2..ala..malas nya!

3.yang ketiga, Haritu kan Fariez handle Fariez Pengisian majlis Seminar Wanita, sepatutnya Fariez kene hantar email kat peserta-peserta Seminar Wanita hari tu,Ni arahan Puan Zakiah.Kat email tu Fariez kene attachkan power point penceramah.supaya peserta dapat much benefit la dari seminar tu,one third of the email da ade kat fariez,and the rest ade kat Pn Zakiah. Tapi malasnye la nk contact Pn Zakiah nk mintak email tu..da sebulan lebih kerja ni tertangguh.haih~

4.yang ke empat ni kerja bertangguh melibatkan diri sendiri. sebab kn emosi tak stabil, Baju2 fariez da penuh satu bakul. T_T bile nk basuh?

5.Minggu ni fariez tak call mak lagi.selalu tak penah miss,hari jumaat je mesti call.Fariez cam tertanya-tanya kat diri sendiri jugak,"apsal akak reluctant sgt nk call mak nih?" banyakla alasan yang fariez cipta sendiri unuk sedapkan hati..antara nya,busy so tak sempat call mak..tapi lepas tu dgr hati fariez cakap, "busy konon, tdo cukup je,boleh lagi blogging,bukak facebook, chatting...." T_T teruknya rasa..hari tu ye ye je Fariez cakap kat Fairuz, kalau kita tak call Mak lebih dari seminggu,cam derhaka kot. (ni sape ntah yang ckp kat Fariez)tapi serius, dulu fariez rs cm, teruknya org2 yang tak call parents die,tak igt family ke ape.Sekaang? i am the person yang teruk tu!

Smalam , pergi talk Idris Tawfiq, die cakap bgus nye request kitong nk dgr talk pasal success la ape la, die kate kat Msia dulu, Students are more interested in BGR topic..i was like, ape bende la tu..kuno nye aku ni tak tahu..At last Idris Tawfiq kate die nk jugak ulas sket pasal BGR. Rupe-rupenya BGR is Boy Girl Relationship..OOooOoo...panjang o kitorng sume dalam Conference Hall tu. Ape yang die cakap did touch my heart,(ala, org sensitive mcm fariez ni, ko cakap la sikit pun, mmg fariez easily touch).Entahla, tapi lepas dgr Idris Tawfiq punye talk, fariez keluar Conference Hall tu smbil tanye diri sediri.."Am I doing the Right Things??".....and fariez still lagi tertanya2 dekat diri sendiri.."Am i?? "

Tiba-tiba rase mcam lagi suka kalau Allah bagi dugaan selalu..sebab Mase tu la,Fariez mmg pagi petang mintak pertolongan die je.. Bila da tak Di Uji, selalu nye lupa.. T_T

Aaa.da pnjng lebar da...thnks for reading taw! chaow!

Being The Best U Can Be -Idris Tawfiq

Pagi tadi,Fariez rase bless because i got an opportunity to attend a talk given by Idris Tawfiq.I was longing to hear his talk since years ago.

Korang penah tak rasa/alami this kind of situation, in which korang nak something,it's just come across your mind,like saya nak bende ni.U know deep in your heart you want it and u dream of that thing,It's not that u want it so badly smpai u keep on working/give so much efforts on it,besides if u do not get that thing, it does not affect u at all, but u know u want it.and out of sudden, God willng, u get what u want.

i bet u didnt get what i mean.Let me give an example,contohla u see someone who is talented in speaking at public,and then u are saying to yourself "i wanna be just like her, so strong, and so berani cakap depan org ramai"dan suatu hari,Allah takdirkan, u get that opportunity to talk in front of people,and u give ur best and finally your wish is now no longer an illusion.

Paham ke? what im trying to say is, well, ni ape y fariez rase la, it might not be applied to u,as u know each of us are unique by her/his own. okie, Ape yang Fariez rs is...when we say to ourself ,i wanna be like that/i wanna get that it,well,is actually a Niat, and when u say it again and again it is sort of Doa.

i dont know why am i saying all these thing,seriusly, i just feel so blessed right now,and i can't help but to express it.As for me, through all my entire life, this thing had happened not for the first or 2nd times,but it had happened many times that i can barely count it.

When i was very young,i was surrounded by ambitious friends,U know, mase kecik2 dulu, we used to ask our friends kan, "besar nanti awak nak jadi ape?"mcm tula la lebih kurang, and one of my best friend, she said kita nak pegi Uk pastu jd Doctor,fariez kagum kot dgn die, honestly,Going to Uk? never such thing come across my mind.pastu fariez cakap kat dlm hati "ah, nk pegi oversea n jadi doc jugakla".It was about 12 years ago..and now,here i am. *looking at those medical books*

here is another story,i dont rememeber exactly when,erm, it's about 2 yrs ago, i was thinkng of my Guru Besar sekolah rendah, He is a nice guy,who is always smiling and the best guru besar ever.Dia tak mengajar kitorang,Cuma kadang2 die ganti cikgu laen, and setiap kali die masuk kelas, he never failed to make my mine thinking,ape yang die cakap/cerita kat kelas was very thoughtful,menarik.Moreover,even he is a guru besar,die respek org.Yes,i can feel his respek towards us, students.owh, pnjng pulak explanation,sebenarnye nk ckp,2 tahun lepas la, lebih kurang, Fariez macam terfikir, Macam mane la Cikgu tu skng,is he doing fine,sihat ke, tak ke..cmne rupe die skng..(Guru besar tu da berumur mse frz sekolah rendah tu.)

okie, korang da boleh agak kot ape y jadi..yup,fariez jumpe die.Fariez tak sangka sgt, baru2 ni la, mase cuti haritu, fariez pegi hospital,i was waiting for my turn, when suddenly, a well known figure came and sat beside me.Of course die tak pasan Fariez, last jumpe mse fariez umur 12years old kot now that i am already 23,besar pnjng , mestila die tak cam.. Fariez cam muka die.sgt.mula-mula tergamam sekejap.

Fariez nk tahu die sihat ke tak,ape y die buat skng, tiba2, org tu ade depan mata! i was so delight, to know He is healthy,having not even a minor health problem (he was at the hospital to make regular medical check up)

And today it happened again.Alhmdulillah.

u dont know how it feel, bila hari-hari baca cerita pasal Idris tawfiq,almost every months recieved his notification bout his activities around the globe, Slalu terfikir, bile la fariez dapat jumpe Sir Idris Tawfiq ni. Pastu tiba2, dapat tahu he is going to give a talk to medical student of Alexandria Univesity!huh.cam mimpi jd kenyataan.

Alhamdulillah.

Mak Fariez cakap,
 Allah sentiasa dgr ape y kita mintak,Allah akan makbulkn Doa kita,

It's just a matter of time,mungkin tak dapat hari ni, kita dapat esok hari,

kalau tak esok pun, bulan depan mungkin, 

kalau tak dapat kat dunia ni, kat akhirat nanti insyallah Allah makbulkan :) 

tp... dgn jalan sabar n mengerjakan solat.

Sorry if the tittle of this entry has mislead you.here are some pics that i managed to snap.

they are now at my bookshelf

priceless, isn't it?

Alexandria community:Nigerian,Egyption,n Malaysian.

Bertahan!

i dont think i can finish reading all these lectures by tomorrow :( nk nangis pun ade.bukan give up, im not giving up, i just cant see any hope here.Padahal banyak bende nk kene bace lagi,da tak betul da fariez ni. somehow i feel like,wanna let it be..redha je la dgn ape y nk jadi esok.Gila ke ape.

Ade ke org lain rase mcm ni?mesti sume org tgh tekun,semangat berkobar-kobar study topozada kan? T_T

Macam sekarang,Fariez sgt takde mood nak bace sume bende alah ni!takde hati nk bace!Tolongla.OnG is soo not my favourite.tp sy sgt nervous jugak!

Tapi sempat lagi pikir: esok nak pakai baju ape.dush!

ah.bertahan la! 29 days to go!!

Hello, ground.

Seriously, the first thing that came out from my mind was "oo okay, macam ni la rase die"  it's not thaat Bad la.i did feel like I need a hug,like,"can someone come and offer me a hug or at least a gentle rub at my spiny part".i need to feel comfort! but then i realizes that..

i just need to choose : to feel bad out of it and grief or just moving on.yeah.betul la kan...note that,today and now on im going to put a positive view in my good or bad events of my life just to make each moment enjoyable.meaningful.better.

i feel complete now,and Ready to go.Let's meet another events in this journey of life!

ohgosh, Finally, i've grown up!

i'm consider myself hugged.

(Myhousemates,they ignore me. i wonder why. have they loss their sense of empathy? T_T" )

But,if anyone care to share a hug,i am more than happy to accept :)

Pilihan anda

"Farieza study tau malam ni, kuatkan semangat..

Sekuat semangat manusia kat stadium tgk Thomas Cup

Semangat sungguh depa.Harap-harap tak tinggal solat Magrib." taqlil

Semua terletak pada diri sendiri,
untuk terus bersemangat menelaah.
untuk sentiasa taat dgn rukun Islam.
atau nak pilih yang sebaliknya?

Berani buat berani la tanggung okie.

semoga setiap usaha kita dekat dunia ni tak sia-sia.

Saya Kenal Anak Perak

Since sekolah fariez lemah sgt buat karangan.Nak join contest Anak Perak ni pun fariez pikir berpuluh-puluh kali.bila da start tulis Tittle pastu stuck berjam-jam, sempat call Mok's lagi.konon-konon nak minta tolong.Mok's kate "Tulis je,SPM dulu bm A kan." T_T ish.

so here we go, fariez tulis je la eh..

Macam Mana Fariez kenal Anak Perak?

erm, Macam mane tau pasal blog Anak Perak.The very 1st time Fariez tahu pasal blog saudara Emi ni,mase 2 tahun lepas kot eh.Emi letak link blog die Emisyntech kat friendster.Itula pertama kali Fariez tahu pasal blog Emi a.k.a Anak Perak.Pastu muncul pulak satu lagi blog Emi which is Emi's Life..Emisyntech cerita pasal isu-isu semasa, Emi's Life pulak, cerita pasal kisah-kisah cinta Emi.opss... :P 

Tapi sekarang dua-dua da dimerged kan,dan ada nama baru.tadaaaa~ 

 ANAK PERAK.COM(mana layan blogspot da. :P)
DAri situ la Fariez tau pasal Blog Anak Perak ni.

Komen Fariez Pasal Blog Anak Perak.
1.Entry-entry dekat Anak Perak nampaknya lebih Matang.Ilmiah.Berinformasi.Tak tertmpu pada personal story,luahan perasaan semata-mata.which is good la kan.
2.Design blog.kemas.Combination colour best so, i kasi 4/5 bintang kat u :) Loading die cepat, tak serabut fariez tunggu.oo sebab background die putih, fariez tukar la ..kasi 5/5 :)
3.Yang paling Fariez suka,the name itself. ANAK PERAK.pergh,Congrats eh Emi for having your own trademark.bukan semua org boleh come out dgn idea mcm ni.kan kan.

Sebab ape nk Hosting sendiri?
Actually, someone who are dear to me,nak buat blog kormesial..Kan best kalau fariez boleh tolong dapatkan  domain untuk die.kan kan.erm,nak kasi name Zalzalah.com

That's all folks!Check this out ANAK PERAK.COM

A new look by Template Designer

Da lame tak tukar layout blog.setahun lebih asyik polka-dot je :)
alang2 cuti, fariez spend sikit mase maen tukar2 layout.
blogger ade function Template Designer best, boleh tukar layout dgn cepat,mudah,sgt best. kot.selama ni malas nak try, bajet layout polka-dot tu da cantek sgt da :P

selama ni kalau nak tukat template/layout makan mase berjam.almaklumla, org tak terer kan.
gune Template designer, tak sampai 5 minit kot! Time saver betul.

:D lepas ni hari2pun boleh tukar background blog.erk,melampau la plak hari2.
tukar setiap bulan la :)

serius senang, korang try la.

Beauty of sunset

Fariez sgt admire the beauty of sunset.

Gambar-gambar ni fariez amik dekat depan rumah waktu on the way nak pergi rumah Liza.

Fariez rs mesti fariez akan rindu nak tengok Sunset ni 3 tahun lagi.3 tahun lagi la...

tak sabar nak tunggu waktu tu.. :)

Sementara nak tunggu 3 tahun lagi, i better study hard :)

Adding Facebook "like" button to your blog

I think it is cool to have that button on your blog.Don't ya think so?Facebook like button now can be found in your site.

(now that i have a chance to blogging again,Fariez rase nak keep on typing,da post blog entry banyak2.as compensation, something like that.)

Anyway,let's get back on track.

HOW TO PUT THE FACEBOOK LIKE BUTTON INTO YOUR BLOG?

Sangat senang kot.fariez tahu pun dari sini

im back!!

yippe!!

sebulan lebih, internet fariez problem, tak boleh nak bukak yahoo,gmail, yahoomail, twitter,blogger..
cam tahu2 je website tu yang frz kerap bukak..nasib facebook boleh je..so fariez pun malas nk g betulkan internet ni, lagi pun bulan lepas mmg busy..

Alhamdulillah, sume da setel skng, assgment obstetrics n gynecology da lepas,latihan netball da takde,hari sukan pun da abes, kerja-kerja seminar hari wanita da setel,bisness kueh mueh pun da abes :D..Lega nya.Da tak busy sgt.

Balik dari mesyuarat terakhir Seminar wanita,frz bukak la facebook, nk tgk gambr2 sukan yang da diupload,
skali, Facebook pun da tak leh bukak..tak boleh jadi ni,da tahap wajib betulkan..terus call internet provider,suruh die betulkan jugak.Alhamdulillah sekarang sume internet pun da okie.boleh la update blog macam selalu :)

alhamdulillah.