January 08, 2011

Crying does't mean u are weak.

Feeling of losing something we love is painful. but losing someone we love is the worst feeling.indeed it's a most intense pain ever. The more significant the loss the more extreme grief we'll end up with.

Berita pemergian ayah Ina semalam,had successfully makes me flashing back all the feelings that i'd experienced 3 years ago.i was in denial at first, i hardly can accept the fact.i started to blame myself for being abroad.A feeling of guilty, feeling of helpless and hopeless are all over me. i cried days n nights all alone and pretend to be strong in front of everyone.that's so sickening! days passing by, but i keep expecting that he will show up, even i know that he's gone.

yeah, it was 3 years ago..as people says time heals almost anything, and well, it really does.I grows stronger afterwards, i started to realized that berlapang dada/ Redha will make things easier.Even life a bit tougher,but hey, it's not the end of day! we have to keep going and moving on. kan?

Fariez harap sangat Ina tabah dan kuat dengan ujian ni, (i know Ina tabah enough ).Ina, Allah will always be with us kan.Lagipun Ina punya inner strength is profoundly much stronger than Fariez.Ina surely can go through semua ni.Insyallah. Jangan kalah dengan perasaan okie. Just takes as much times as u like.

(Ina probably  will not reading my blog.it just that i dont have the gut to say it out face to face.so i write it here.will try to have some talk with her soon.)

on ears : Coldplay - Fix You. (a song that coherence with current emotion )

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