Improving or not so?

Woot! Time flies real fast! Hari ni minggu last untuk lecture Pediatrics, which means almost sebulan da Fariez jadi 5th year medical student.kalau kat Msia, i might be the happiest person in the world, sbb 5th year is FINAL year! See how BIG final year means to me! (homaigosh, Fatimah, Nadic n Irma, u guys da final year!!, Ika, Nani, Cai, Shahida n the rest of Alex Med Team, lets keep moving. Hoyeah!) 

tak sabar nk tunggu the moment when i can finally make my own graduation entry.Entry graduation day mcm wajib je ade dlm blog/album grad pun mmg wajib ade kn kat Facebook?

Anyway,a month had past..honestly i have to admit that im not improving that much..which is Sad!Still living my life recklessly,still having 7hours of sleeps, even reach 10hours,gosh! i never had a rude awakening to an alarm after a long time.still living a kinda peace life untill i-know-when. yup when the exam is just 4-3 days to go!aa benci. i hate living my life in such way!

After a month ,still i haven't had a real staying up revising all the lectures and the piles of clinical cases were abandoned. i fail in managing my time. i fail to focus on the things that i shud do,worst i spending the time on non-beneficial sort of things (sleep for instants).

sometimes, i'm doubting myself. i claim myself as a student, but fail to discipline as one. I claim that medical life is busy n time consuming but still, i'm waisting every seconds of my life. i claim lectures are too much to be remembered, but i didn't gave an efforts to understand it..

Terukkan? haish teruk betul!  Mak would be disappointed if she discovers the way i lead my life. :( ( fear not, cause she 's not reading my blog, tapi still...)

Well, my mind had identified a goal n directions.. but still having a problem in carrying it out well. 

I need to improve! Everyone should! Today should be better than yesterday.Thus, i must force myself to take an action, why not.

P/s: Nani, Fairuz n Ika. we all have our own misions n visions, don't we? ayuh berusaha!