Recently from zagazig

It was 3am and was rather dark upon our arrival at zagzig. There was really not enough light to have everything visible, only dogs barking sounds and sometimes a harsh hee-haawww can be clearly heard. On the next morning, we were surprised by the goodly green view from the wide open window! MasyaAllah, it feels so pure & refreshing , and really i just falls in love with zagzig instantly.

That's me caught in action,having both hands up and 3 feets away from the opponent.
(this photo credit & copyright goes to Liyana )

this pic was taken just after kalah dengan Cairo. it was unbelievable,like seriously we should had win the game. Kitorang dah leading on the 1st half! tapi itulah takde rezeki, but still kitorang boleh senyum and that's awesome :')

i love this pic without a reason. from left,Najah, Nisa, Nana dan saya :)

The greatest lesson yang fariez belajar from the game is that i shall always and always have my emotional stable in any situation.It might be a  huge downfall but that's not a reason to have a mental breakdown..i'll keep my emotional intact,have faith and just do my best.

what ever the outcome is,surely it is best for me.Only Allah knows, while i  know not.

All praises to Allah, for the bronze medal.

sepahit hempedu

Lama betul tak bukak blog sendir, Blog orang lain ape tah lagi. Ape resipi baru mat gebu? apa isu baru dari anwarhadi? Apa kisah pagi hari di durham? dah tak penting..

Sebulan yang lepas fariez hidup sendiri, dalam dunia sendiri, melayan perasaan.Pagi sampai petang pergi kelas, berlakon kuat depan kawan-kawan, balik rumah menahan sakit sorang-sorang dalam bilik, Malam muntah-muntah. Lepastu wajiblah tidur je, study pun tak.

Lepas tu Fariez belajar, kalau Fariez kurang makan, sakit akan kurang, bila ambil injection anti spasmodic sakit akan kurang. Minggu kedua, rasa better sikit. dah tak sakit, dah tak muntah-muntah tapi selera makan berkurang. Tapi bontot sakit gile kena cucuk! Doc suruh Fariez amik vit K IM injection hari-hari? insane!

Second week tu, Fariez turun naik turun naik department surgery, mintak consultation dari doctor. Fariez harap-harap this pain can be treated by medication je. Tapi harapan jela.. I've no other option selain cholecystectomy. if fariez takde symptoms pun still kena buat cholecystectomy sebab the stone measure more than 2cm.

so yeah, Fariez ade gall bladder stone, a single stone most probably a cholesterol stone. Selama ni kalau tengok laparoscopic cholecystectomy rasa ngilu n rasa nk pengsan je, i never had my  emotional involved. Kali ni kalau tengok the operation, mmg akan emotional gila, haruslah menangiss..Tak boleh nak bayangkan perut sendiri kena tebuk.huwaaa scarrryyy wey!

So yeah, on the 3rd week,fariez  busy setelkan  futher  routine investigations, re-do the ultra sound, hospital placement, setelkan dengan insurans and all. Lastly bile dah setel  semua, rasa mcm.... huwaa, dugaan ini terlalu berat untuk ditanggung sorang-sorang.

Sequence yang ada dalam minda : Sakit-setelkan dengan hospital sorang-sorang-pergi operation sorang-sorang- stay hospital sorang-sorang. pergh forever alone.Waktu tu rasa nak lari..Dalam sibuk-sibuk tula, ada exam osce pulak. depression tahap dewa.

Tapi hidup kena diteruskan, exam kena jugak ambil. Ku kutip jualah cebisan-cebisan kekuatan yang tinggal, lalu ku teruskan jua hidup :')

Fariez decide nk belikan tiket flight untuk mak, so that ada orang temankan fariez dekat hospital nanti.Tapi sadly, abang refused. grrr, Benci ah. semua benda yang orang plan, mesti die tak setuju, ntah hape-hape ntah. Tapi takpela, mak cakap " kakak balik la , buat operation dekat Malaysia. Bolehla orang-orang tersayang datang melawat " :')

setelah sekian lama sedih-sedih, Hari ni lepas issue ticket flight rasa lega sangat-sangat-sangat .wehuu, I'm going back to Malaysia bebeh!

Most probably will have my operation done at Hospital Manjung.Still rasa takut. Tapi takpe, ade mak temankan.hehe.Korang doakanla Fariez cepat sihat, semoga operation nanti berjalan lancar, mintak di jauhkan dari open surgery, tebuk-tebuk pun dah rasa ngeri.huhu.

Siapa-siapa yang dtg melawat fariez dekat Hospital Manjung nanti jangan lupa bawakkan Pau Kaya/Kacang yang panas-panas ye! okie kidding. :))