to whom it may concern

i dun expect it's going to be an issue.

i know my result already, and u don't know yours.
so it's a very BIG deal,isn't it?
tak aci la frz tau.

and now i am the one to be blamed cause i am the one who wrote it here?
ape la naseb, da la frz sbb result frz kn..pastue kne lak cmni..

and someone gave me an advice, that i shouldn't write it on my blog?
macam2 kan..sygku a.k.a my dear, this blog for the whole is belong to frz.
nape lak frz tak leh tulis cmtue.
oo. okie, because it somehow make people feel it's unfair.
okiela2, i'll consider bout it.

n bout the result, kan kite sume da dapat result tue.
just pointer je baru keluar. so ppl, dun take it so hard :D.
u can expect your pointer kan?tak ke?

aiyok, frz sedey rtu bcause someone did make me feel bad,
somehow she make me felt like my result was sgt teruk gile n i shud not be happy2 for having such result..org tue just ckp.. (eh nape lak frz kne cte sume kt sini.haha)
u noe, frz nie such a mgade2 kn,so bile die ckp cmtu, i make way to bedroom,
nges2 mcm budak kecik. maen pet Soc n then before i went to sleep i blog bout it.
i just type je..tak sangke wey, what have i done buat org rs IT'S UNFAIR! u noe the result alreadi. (see, im innocent.)

let say if somebody had stick the result on the wall outside our lecture hall just the day after i post that entry. issue nie tak timbul kott?takde la org rs unfairkn..erm
but,for the sake of defending my myself frz nk ckp..
mne la tau nape result tak tampal lg kt lua tu.
hahaha. ini tak adil, frz y disalahkan.haha.
okie.kidding.tak klaka pun.

pastue, skang, frz just nak mintak maap kt those y rs it was unfair because i know the result.
frz rs ustaz ade pegang kot list tue.
u can just call him, and ask him bout your result too.
im sure he will not hesitate to tell.
and yeah,then sume org akn gembire2 sbb sume da setel.

frz mmg rs sedey la or shud i say myesal ,yela... bende cm nie pun boleh buat havoc mcm ape.pagi2 lak tue, smpai nana jd org tengah lak tu.smpai frz trus wat tukar setting blog jd private.(it is soo really me. buat bende tak pikir)

but to think about it again,who am i to be able to please everyone.

im just a normal human being kn. mmg tak mampu la nk buat SEMUA org puas hati.
and sometimes i dun feel i have to.

pas nie sy kne diam2 je.

completely honest.

jgn tnye frz maksud jujur. Sbb frz tak tahu nak huraikan , dari segi istilah atau bahasa.Mmg lemah nk menghuraikan,memikirkan ayat.. n usually I’ll end up by saying nothing.
Tapi, “jujurnya” frz tau ape itu jujur. :)Jujur nie, salah satu choice yang kita ade..bile kita nk memulakan percakapan.

Jujur tue bg frz.. bila kamu selekeh, frz akan cakap “nape ko nie selekeh?”
jujur tue bg frz, bila frz tak suke lepak library,frz tak ikut awak pegi library.
jujur tu bile frz ckp “kamu tak kurus “ bila mata frz nmpak kamu gemuk.

betul kata Nawwar, kite punya background yang berbeza. Membesar dgn cara yang sendiri.
setengah org tak rase jujur itu penting. yang penting hati org yang mendengar tu kne jage.

maka, frz nk g library.”korang nak ikut?”dan diorang ckp. “boleh je”
tapi last minute diorang tukar “sy tak jd ikut”

dan diorang akan cakap, "eh frz kurus la. "
Walaupun hakikat sebenar, kalau berat diri die sendiri mencecah 50 die ckp die gemuk.

dan diorang akan ckp "pakaian kamu kemas je.."
walaupun baju kurung yang frz pakai tu berkedut mcm ape.

kita punye opinion sendiri tentang jujur. Ini opinion sy.

dan ini contoh jujur :
bila ym frz punya status : do not disturb.

anep:BUZZ

anep:hahaha

farieza :Oit! hampeh r!

anep:do not disturb? hahaha

farieza :ko saje kan.

anep:ter... (pastue letak smiley senyum nmpak gigi)

farieza:aku ngh sedey...

anep:bakpo?

farieza:pointer teruk.

anep:tu la ko.main lagi.
anep: jgn sedey2.
anep:hidup ade naik ade trun.

dr pada pengalaman frz, salah satu factor headache adalah bnyak berfikir.
terima kaseh nawwar, bg frz paracetamol.lega sikit.
frz nak tdo.

jgn rsau, frz da besar. Kalau semangat die hilang mlm nie.
die pandai cari balik semnagt itu.
Cuma bukan skng.

zzzzzz…

(n yes,to all student from Alex, the result is out.i mean the pointer.)

kecewakah ??

P1070356, originally uploaded by connie.ME.connie.

paper parasite tadi..

frz gagahkn jugak kaki keluar dari exam hall.kecewa. serius kecewa.
kalau last year tak dapat jawab, alasan sgt bnyak parasite2 y kne hafal.
tahun nie tak dapat jawab , nak bagi alasan ape??

perasaan kecewa nie tak tahu nak di sandarkan pada apa/siapa.

kecewa dgn diri sendiri ke fariez??
no way. sy tak suke kecewa dgn diri sendiri.
kejam name nye.
(jgn slhkn diri sendiri ye kawan2, perhaps in this situation.)

kecewa dgn paper exam ??
does she expect the question to be more easier.
hamboi2.bnyak cantek muke kamu.

kecewa dgn penjage exam?
haih. nape belum sejam da kutip kertas.sy tak abes jawab lagi. :(
suke2 je nak slhkn penjage mase kn.

kecewa.

amik Hp.typing..

" exam para sgt horror"

send.

Hp bunyik.one msg received

"..doa banyak2, ALLAH will do the rest."

*senyum*

there shud be nobody to be blame on.
tak gune pun kecewa.buang mase.serius.
maka, frz memilih untuk tidak berperasaan terhadap paper para.
chills! lepas nie da tak yah bace parasite da!!! :)

p/s: see how a simple nice good words helps me.

thanks kamu!

Hujan

I've always in a good mood when it come to a rainy day, especially when i have nothing to do with outdoors activity, no plan of going out and play.

today, after the histology examination , i was spending almost 60% of my time at my desk listening to the rhythm of rains. with my loyal teddy besides me (yes, blebby i'm talking bout u *hug). a hot tea ready to be slurped.heater on the other side of me, just enough to make me feel nice and warm. :)
for god knows, how comfort i feel right now.with no paper on the next day, and a day after tomorrow.doesn't that sound comforting, u tell me.

and hours time of raining trigger my memory back to Malaysia..
i must say that i miss those rainy days in Malaysia. less windy than here.
i miss the day that which my bro, my sis n i having fun in rain.
we used to lari laju2, lepas tue meluncur dgn gaya bebas kat rumput depan rumah.
baju kotor tak ingt.i doubt anyone of u had done that.

and also, we used to act like ouh soo hardworking children,
" babaaa, nk g cuci kereta ngn motor" ceh.bajet rajen, sgt tak leh blah. padahal maen je lebeh..
n bazir sabun.ermm, honestly, i would gave a world to be at that moment again.

( except the part that i usually caught a fever a day after that, and my big bro used to make a joke about it, "demam kure2" die cakap. huh! i hate him so much back then, but i now realized, it was only a joke, why i take it so serious?)

enough flashing back the memories :)

Hujan - Sudirman

nah, take this song! it's my favorite song during rainy day.

( u might laugh to dead if u see how i used to sing this song eloquently at age of 8, i sang it with a full expression on my face facing the window with lirik y berterabur of course :) )

bangun

, originally uploaded by nurmylife.

pernah rase perasaan nak berkurung dalam bilik,
nak berbungkus dalam selimut?
paksa mata untuk tutup.paksa otak untuk berhenti berfikir.
dgn harapan dapat melelapkn mata.tdo.dan terus mengejar mimpi yang indah?

itu definasi melarikan diri. lari dr dunia nyta.

teringat pesan Dr Ika dekat Nordin "jangan lari"

"JANGAN LARI"

semoga mereka yang sedang merasakan diri tak mampu lagi berdiri.
ambil mase untuk berfikir..tak guna menangisi kelemahan diri.
jangan fikir nak menarik diri dari dunia.tak guna.

setiap kesusahan ade kesenangan, itu janji DIA.

tapi semua bermula dgn diri sendiri.

harap2, suatu hari nnt bile frz down ade org yang terus tiupkan kate2 semngt.
erm, pling tidak.. ade la entry ni untuk di bace balik..

bangun yok, lipat2 selimut tue, bukak tingkap bilik..
hirup udara dunia.bisikkan kat diri.."Ahamdulillah."

Alhamdulillah,kita masih punya nyawa.