31 julai

sy pikirkan hari nie satu ogos.

sbb tue sy tak nk keluar maen bowling hari nie. sbb lagi dua har sy nk blik msia.

nak kemas2 rumah n barang2 sume.

sy ingt bulan julai ade 30 hari.

sy tak percaye hani cakap " julai ade 31 hari la..pegi cek calendar kalau tak caye"

oo. mmg betul julai ade 31 satu hari.

"kamu nga' percaya sama org y syg sama kamu, itu beda tau nga'? "

sape ingt dalam cte ape ayat tue.huhuhu.

akhir2 nie frz slalu teringt dialog tue.haih.

normal la kan kalau kite susah nk percaye kt orang.kan kan??

mungkin kah sy boleh jadi gile sbb terlalu paranoid?

penat.

penantian satu penyeksaan.ayat tersebut mmg terbukti kesahihan nye.
penatla tunggu hari nk balik.erm, penantian itu memenatkan.
ade sape2 y tak sokong ke? tak sokong, buat cite kt blog sendiri.
ini blog sy punya. ape frz tulis sume adalah betul.

fariez hari2 pun countdown nk blik.lagi 6 hari lagi.
tapi ade org tue da siap countdown nk abes cuti. 74 hari lg.hish.
tak sabar eh nk start kuliah. bgus betul.. :)

ptg td diorang sume sibuk2 timbang beg. rsau beg lebih muatan,gara2 kisah sahih lg benar dr ahli2 rumah nagah la ni.diorang kne bayar 6 ribu, sbb lebih muatan. ish2. 6 ribu melayang kt airport.bukan sikit. 3bulan elaun abes cmtu je. so,sarah, ona, n nawwar pun pakat2 la timbng beg sebelum blik msia .di sebabkn fariez lmbt lg nk blik, tak terlibat la aktiviti timbng beg. nk kemas beg awal2, nmpak cm excited sgt lak, so maintain je.. buat2 cool.tak kemas beg lagi. so kitorang (frz ngn k ftin) timbng berat badan je la. hehe.

skng tinggal fariez ngn nawwar ngn k fatin je.
k ftin da tdo, nawwar tgk balut2 buah tin. nawwar nyer flight esok.pastue tgl la frz ngn k ftin je. sedey nye. ngadu ngn mak, sedey sume org da balik.mak ckp, "adil la.. sbb last year akak blik awal. this year rse la pulak blik lmbt." :( ye la..
tp akak tak sbr nk jumpe mak.aish~

pig lining for shoes

"Jgn pegang beg nie tau, made of pig skin."

tue la first time frz tau,kulit haiwan tersebut boleh buat beg. beg Ka yan tue cute la tapi..frz tak la tgk betul2. da ka yan ckp cmtue, so kitorang sume cam, hati2 okie. tak pasal2 kang kne cari tanah. it was 3 years ago.

Baru2 nie, frz ngn nawwar pegi la , ekspo dekat biblotica, kat sinbad tu. frz ingt nak bli container je sebenarnye, buat isi barang2. alang2 da sampai kat situ n takde plan laen, so kitorang pun meluangkan mase melihat barang2 kt situ. macam2 ade, bende kering smpai bende basah, makanan, pakaian, barang2 plastik, kerusi, meja, carpet, buku2 dan lain2. :) cam supermarket pulak frz rs.

okie2, sebenarnye frz nk ckp y kat situ ade jugak jual kasut, lining die gune haiwan tersebut punye kulit. nawwar la y perasan dulu. pastue terus nawwar tanye org y jual tue. ni kasut pvc ke? org tue kate tak.. nie kulit asli.euuuw~ geli lak frz dgr bile die ckp kulit asli.

here is the shoes, frz bukan nk band kedai tue taw, just for sake of sharing. pastue nk pesan kt kawan2,beware time bli kasut. cek betul2 eh.

nie close up pic. beza kulit laen ngn kuit haiwan tersebut, die nye texture tue ade cm bintik2 tiga.
erm, no wonder la, pakcik tokei kedai tu bukan egyptian, org cina kot. tak sur, tp muke cm cine la.

unpredictable.

it was approximately at 3 pm. bored already.
and i realizes that i'm a such laziest lilltle lump.from morning till evening, i'm doing nothing but sleeping.even the noises make by my housemates failed to wake me up. i thought after the fnal exam, i 'll spend my time playing computer games. i loves games. but when the time is right, my great love for playing games, just puff! disappear.

this morning, i really wish someone, anyone , would ask me out, hang out somewhere. and yes,Ona did! she's planning to go for shopping for a bag and would be happy if i wanna join her. they (ona n sarah) nak shopping kt Green plaza. i bet Ona, felt little weird when i showed like i'm not interested to join her. i've no reasons, i really wanna go out, but suddenly, i felt malas sgt.

from the two situasion that i mentioned above, am i consider as a weird , unpredictable and banyak songeh little girl? hurmmm.

learning objective: sabar itu separuh dari iman

finally, kiss the patho paper a goodbye! goodbye examination, at least for his semester..

althought currently, i feel like very mad angry, i felt like sreaming out loud, because that last paper was like .. grrrr.tak rs freedom at.ALL. deal , mmg takde rezeki . and nothing much to tell pun.nape tak jwb betul2 kn. sob sob,.huh!n know wut? if i fail this paper, any paper actually, i have to cut my summer break short then come back to mesir earlier for re-sit paper.hwaa~ tak nak :( . please la.. i want to pass this paper soo badly. i dun wanna come back back to this freaking mesir alone,while others r enjoying their holidays in mlaysia. NO WAY ! tak nk!

after the exam, i find my way to the bank.drawing some money of course, ade ke org gi bank tue nak simpan duet.blah. takde sape nk simpan dlm bank tue.fine la, the guard in the bank is just trying to be nice, asking us to have a seat and wait for our turn patiently. but at the moment, i dun feel like having a seat. is it a big deal? the guard said: yes, it is. the guard mcm tak puas hati, die bleh lak nk pakse frz duduk kan. huh~ pape je la.

the accountant lak, like forcing us to use the ATM at the outside.obviously, die cm serabut sebab kitorang ramai2 beratur nak draw duet.huh! kalau ATM tue boleh gune, frz pun tak hingin la nk beratur kt situ. not to forget the other egyptians y tak tahu beratur. pandai ke tak pndai? kitorang lak kne fight for the turn, padahal masing2 da ade no sendiri. 16 ngn 22 mane dulu? ooOOoo 22..pandai!puas la tunggu turn td, sejam lebey... menguji kesabaran betul.
i just shud stop sounding like a angry makcik kan. forgive me, i cant help but posting bout this.

do you know that, when we burst the things that make us angry it somehow will lower our intracranial pressure. then, you'll feel not much, but at least a little bit better than before.hahaha, jgn percaye.

i'm done.

n i'm really clear with the objective.

ona : okie.. (dgn suara y agak kuat)

fariez : smbil dgr radio, smbil bace buku patho, dalam hati(oo0. ona cakap phone.kuat nye tapi..)

tibe2 ona da ade kat depan pintu study bilik frz.

ona: sape pgl ona? (smbil buat muke blur)

fariez ngn nawwar : huh? hahahaha...

ona: eee takut nye..sape pgl ona??

fariez ngn nawwar : hahahaha...

fariez ngn nawwar : ketawa lagi.. patut la die ckp "okie" td..

tak tahu nape kitorang ketawa.muke die time die ckp die takut.comel seyes.

tapi, sape la y pgl ona td?? mane ade org laen dlm rumah selain frz, nawwar , ngn iman,
(iman dlm toilet waktu tue)..

am i taking life too seriusly??

is this problem matter 5 years from now??

wa, da nak dekat sebulan exam. cam terpikir, University laen ade ke exam smpai sebulan cmni. myeksa jiwa dan raga la. bak kate Nawwar, momentum exam cam da berkurang untuk paper akhir2 nie (two papers to go). fariez pun rse camtu jugak..tapi..BERTAHAN2!

then, suddenly anas ckp, nk buat last meeting kt green plaza.green plaza?mase tue,the first thing that came in my mind was "alahai, anat tak bace lagi takkn nk g mkn kat luar kot?"but then bile pikir2 balik,why not kua je. last week was a stressful week for me..with exams, and some personal matters, so i think a day out with friends is just what i need. a day out with hani, nana, n liza.(tapi gambar liza takde.haha. diskriminasi ke atas liza.)

yang best smlam. sebab lepak2 kat Brownies,bising2 ngn diorang buat plan nak jalan2 pas exam, plan nk jalan2 taun depan sambil melupakan exam oral pada keesokan harinye dan anatOmy y tak abes bace,hahaha, pastue makan ayam banyak2 takde pikir pasal diet.

yang tak best, milk shake da cair. pastue duk sekejap je pastue kne balik.sampai rumah pening2 sebab pakcik cab bawak kete die dgn gaya bebas. malam tak leh tdo sbb rsau pasal anat..

im suppose to be studying anatomy rite now, and blog later. but somehow, i swicth it, like, blogging now, and study later.lalala~

aaaaa. kemalasan melanda.

a month from now

nearly a month actually.

a month from now,
i'll be tougher, i'll be okie, i'll be at the best condition ever.i'll leading a happy-non guilty life.
i'll be a smart gal,who knows what exactly she want in this long short life.
i'll noe how to decide.oh, well,that's what i hope..
(and what i always say to my mr kaunsellor,n yes i have my own personal kaunsellor)

a month from now,
no more exams. (but still, i'm not going to forget my academic stuff)
wohoho, i'll be in my mother land, malaysia.i'll be spending most of my time with my most beloved mum. i'll be her favourite companion for the whole 3 months.that's my promise.

hell, yes, a month from now,
and at that time, i am no longer a 2nd year medical student.
doesn't 3rd year sound better, it sound cool to me,3rd year,
i'll be more mature.(yeah, i guess) o man.i can't wait.

but, some how,i feel..

can i just go back to year 2005.

oh yes,

in yur dream.

spiritual?

baru2 nie kak nik tegur fariez kat Ym,wawa~ malu sgt, sbb bukan fariez y tegur kak nik dulu.da la lama fariez tak ziarah rumah kak nik. ingat mase mula2 smpai kat bumi mesir nie, rumah tue la tempat y kerap fariez pergi. tambah2 bile ade problem.(teruk betul kn) mungkin sebab kak nik akak SC (smart cycle) fariez buat fariez senang dengar kak nik.kak ni selalu berpesan2, ayat2 kak nik menampakkn die seorang y tegas dalam bab2 agama nie. untung ila ade kakak cam kak nik .(i dun have any)

kak nik tak tnye banayk pun, biasala time exam nie, perbualan selalu nye tak off topic,sume pasal exam "camne exam, okie ke tak okie, banyak lagi ke paper, paper semalam mcm mane, da abes study ke....."(dalam hati frz, terharu sgt, kak nik y sibuk ngn clinical year sempat lagi luangkn mase tanya khabar adek2.walaupun tak lama, tapi mmg terkesan dalam hati..
boleh ke fariez jadi mcm kak nik?

" ok la fariz.. knik nk kuar dulu... knik dedicate ayat tadabur utk fariz ,
al ankabut :69..krm slm ahli bet . gluck! rbbuna ysahhil."

dalam kehidupan dunia ini hanya senda gurau dan permaianan,Dan sesungguhnya negeri akhirat itulah kehidupan y sebenarnya, sekiranya mereka mengetahui

laju je kak nik type, tak sempat fariez ckp pape pun..fariez sempat ckp okie je. pastue k nik da offline.

orang cakap, untuk ajak org ke arah kebaikan kite tak semesti nye gunekan kata2. fariez sgt setuju bende tu.. sbb nye kak nik tak penah pun ckap, suruh kitorang ikut ape y die buat.. tapi fariez selalu rase nk jadi mcm kak nik.tambah2 lepas sc, berkobar2 semangat..yela, baru lepas dgr nasihat..tapi bile da lame2,nape la fariez slalu lupe.. :(

sebab tue la, kite kne berpesan2 kn...

gambar kat kak nik nie, fariez amik mse sukaneka hari tue, saje je datang awal walaupun fariez bukan AJK. (tapi tak tolong pun, sibuk snap gambar org). kak nik senyum je waktu tu, tapi dalam hati fariez mase tue sedeh sgt.. sbb tahun depan belum tentu kak nik ade bersukaneka ngn kitorang lagi.(insyallah kak nik abes awal tahun depan). ;( nanti tinggal kitorang je, kitorang la y kne jage diri sendiri, kne ingtkn diri sendiri..

mampu ke?? mana ade kemahuan di situ ade jalan kn..erm..

kononnye xnk pk pasal cinta lg.tp lihatlah skang,ckp je lebih.

cakap tak serupa bikin..

wawawa~

ya ALLAH, nape la fariez budus sgt..

dala time exam cmni, tolongla..

fariez tak tahu nak buat ape da.

rase nak tutup je mate, buat2 tak nmapak. buat2 tak tahu ape y die rase..

tapi fariez tak boleh..

fariez rse mcm sgt bersalah, mmg fariez cakap kat die dulu,

"i'll talk about everything but not love, not rite now"

(yakin je frz kn mase tue kn..itu ayat org kecewa tahu tak.)

jgn benci fariez boleh tak??