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Boleh ke nk meluahkan perasaan kat sini??

Hari ni Fariez start Posting Orthopedic,kat Hospital Nariman,tak la jauh sgt, tp jauh jugak la, sbb selama ni, posting kat hopsital2 yang boleh je nk pegi jalan kaki.Hospital Nariman ni kene naek teksi,3 egyption pound kene bayar.pg td pakcik teksi mintak 4 egyption pound.Hospital tu ade dua bangunan, satu bangunan baru, and bagunan lame..bangunan lama tu, mmg nampak old-school sgt,macam bangunan bersejarah..nnt bile berkesempatan Fariez share pic Hospital tu kat sini eh.

Selalunya kalau hari 1st posting,kelas start lambat, Doc datang lambat.. tapi kat Orthopedic department tadi, Doc datang awal,Lecture start sharp at nine, siap amik kedatangan lagi!Mase amik kedatangan tu Doc sebut nama sorang2, fariez kalau time-time sebut name ni, mmg fariez concentrate je dgr, takut nama terlepas, tak pun nnt sume org pandang2 kita kalau kita tak sedar Doc panggil nama.Bile turn name Fariez( die pagil ikut urutan),die skip, kire die tak sebutla nama Fariez.aahhh da cuak da..mungkin die tertinggal.harap2 die ulang balik  nama2 tu. waktu die ulang, still takde nama Fariez..

Nak tahu ape y come out 1st to my mind, rase macam..ke fariez tak layak masuk Orthopedic, kene repeat Surgery dulu baru leh masuk. yelah, Orthopedic kan, bawah surgery department..sedey sgt mase tu..n panic.hahaha. kalau la korang tgk muke frz masa tu..(nik pndng belakang mse tu,ntah2 die pasan muka panik fariez )

Alhamdulillah,the lecturer pas2kan kertas kedatangn, rupanya ade je nama fariez kat kertas tu, siap da tick present lagi, just die tak sebut td.haih, kasi cuak sama wa ja la!

Sepanjang kelas td, alhamdulillah takde rasa mengantuk atau tertido, itu yang penting, sebab kalau fariez ngntuk or tdo dlm kelas, mesti balik rumah Fariez takde mood.tak pun rase cm serabut sgt-sgt.I hate being a sleepy head in class.(tht's why fariez akan make sure tdur cukup sebelum gi kls) so hari ni mood sepatutnye okie la kn,sbb tak tdo kat kelas..Tapi still, fariez rs cm something..cam tak bersemangat, cam malas nk buat pape.nk layan persaan je.

Tak tahu la nape..pikir2 balik.. maybe sebab banyak kerja-kerja fariez yang tertangguh kot. kerja-kerja yang melibatkan orang laen..

1.taknk aa cte kat sini..kang ade y mara fariez :P

2.Surat nk apply taknk repeat Surgery. Anas suruh Fariez buat, (bgus betul ade student representative yang mcm ni, die yang rsau lebih kat anak-anak buah die) tapi, Fariez tak reti buat.. :( Anas suruh contact Zack,(nath sape la budak ni, Fariez tak kenal) Anas kate buat la surat dgn die, pastu nnt Anas tolong ckpkn kat Doc, Perhaps tula yang Fariez faham, tapi Fariez contact Zack, Zack ckp siapkan surat,die da siap da die punye, esok kite jumpe Doc sama2..ala..malas nya!

3.yang ketiga, Haritu kan Fariez handle Fariez Pengisian majlis Seminar Wanita, sepatutnya Fariez kene hantar email kat peserta-peserta Seminar Wanita hari tu,Ni arahan Puan Zakiah.Kat email tu Fariez kene attachkan power point penceramah.supaya peserta dapat much benefit la dari seminar tu,one third of the email da ade kat fariez,and the rest ade kat Pn Zakiah. Tapi malasnye la nk contact Pn Zakiah nk mintak email tu..da sebulan lebih kerja ni tertangguh.haih~

4.yang ke empat ni kerja bertangguh melibatkan diri sendiri. sebab kn emosi tak stabil, Baju2 fariez da penuh satu bakul. T_T bile nk basuh?

5.Minggu ni fariez tak call mak lagi.selalu tak penah miss,hari jumaat je mesti call.Fariez cam tertanya-tanya kat diri sendiri jugak,"apsal akak reluctant sgt nk call mak nih?" banyakla alasan yang fariez cipta sendiri unuk sedapkan hati..antara nya,busy so tak sempat call mak..tapi lepas tu dgr hati fariez cakap, "busy konon, tdo cukup je,boleh lagi blogging,bukak facebook, chatting...." T_T teruknya rasa..hari tu ye ye je Fariez cakap kat Fairuz, kalau kita tak call Mak lebih dari seminggu,cam derhaka kot. (ni sape ntah yang ckp kat Fariez)tapi serius, dulu fariez rs cm, teruknya org2 yang tak call parents die,tak igt family ke ape.Sekaang? i am the person yang teruk tu!

Smalam , pergi talk Idris Tawfiq, die cakap bgus nye request kitong nk dgr talk pasal success la ape la, die kate kat Msia dulu, Students are more interested in BGR topic..i was like, ape bende la tu..kuno nye aku ni tak tahu..At last Idris Tawfiq kate die nk jugak ulas sket pasal BGR. Rupe-rupenya BGR is Boy Girl Relationship..OOooOoo...panjang o kitorng sume dalam Conference Hall tu. Ape yang die cakap did touch my heart,(ala, org sensitive mcm fariez ni, ko cakap la sikit pun, mmg fariez easily touch).Entahla, tapi lepas dgr Idris Tawfiq punye talk, fariez keluar Conference Hall tu smbil tanye diri sediri.."Am I doing the Right Things??".....and fariez still lagi tertanya2 dekat diri sendiri.."Am i?? "

Tiba-tiba rase mcam lagi suka kalau Allah bagi dugaan selalu..sebab Mase tu la,Fariez mmg pagi petang mintak pertolongan die je.. Bila da tak Di Uji, selalu nye lupa.. T_T

Aaa.da pnjng lebar da...thnks for reading taw! chaow!

Being The Best U Can Be -Idris Tawfiq

Pagi tadi,Fariez rase bless because i got an opportunity to attend a talk given by Idris Tawfiq.I was longing to hear his talk since years ago.

Korang penah tak rasa/alami this kind of situation, in which korang nak something,it's just come across your mind,like saya nak bende ni.U know deep in your heart you want it and u dream of that thing,It's not that u want it so badly smpai u keep on working/give so much efforts on it,besides if u do not get that thing, it does not affect u at all, but u know u want it.and out of sudden, God willng, u get what u want.

i bet u didnt get what i mean.Let me give an example,contohla u see someone who is talented in speaking at public,and then u are saying to yourself "i wanna be just like her, so strong, and so berani cakap depan org ramai"dan suatu hari,Allah takdirkan, u get that opportunity to talk in front of people,and u give ur best and finally your wish is now no longer an illusion.

Paham ke? what im trying to say is, well, ni ape y fariez rase la, it might not be applied to u,as u know each of us are unique by her/his own. okie, Ape yang Fariez rs is...when we say to ourself ,i wanna be like that/i wanna get that it,well,is actually a Niat, and when u say it again and again it is sort of Doa.

i dont know why am i saying all these thing,seriusly, i just feel so blessed right now,and i can't help but to express it.As for me, through all my entire life, this thing had happened not for the first or 2nd times,but it had happened many times that i can barely count it.

When i was very young,i was surrounded by ambitious friends,U know, mase kecik2 dulu, we used to ask our friends kan, "besar nanti awak nak jadi ape?"mcm tula la lebih kurang, and one of my best friend, she said kita nak pegi Uk pastu jd Doctor,fariez kagum kot dgn die, honestly,Going to Uk? never such thing come across my mind.pastu fariez cakap kat dlm hati "ah, nk pegi oversea n jadi doc jugakla".It was about 12 years ago..and now,here i am. *looking at those medical books*

here is another story,i dont rememeber exactly when,erm, it's about 2 yrs ago, i was thinkng of my Guru Besar sekolah rendah, He is a nice guy,who is always smiling and the best guru besar ever.Dia tak mengajar kitorang,Cuma kadang2 die ganti cikgu laen, and setiap kali die masuk kelas, he never failed to make my mine thinking,ape yang die cakap/cerita kat kelas was very thoughtful,menarik.Moreover,even he is a guru besar,die respek org.Yes,i can feel his respek towards us, students.owh, pnjng pulak explanation,sebenarnye nk ckp,2 tahun lepas la, lebih kurang, Fariez macam terfikir, Macam mane la Cikgu tu skng,is he doing fine,sihat ke, tak ke..cmne rupe die skng..(Guru besar tu da berumur mse frz sekolah rendah tu.)

okie, korang da boleh agak kot ape y jadi..yup,fariez jumpe die.Fariez tak sangka sgt, baru2 ni la, mase cuti haritu, fariez pegi hospital,i was waiting for my turn, when suddenly, a well known figure came and sat beside me.Of course die tak pasan Fariez, last jumpe mse fariez umur 12years old kot now that i am already 23,besar pnjng , mestila die tak cam.. Fariez cam muka die.sgt.mula-mula tergamam sekejap.

Fariez nk tahu die sihat ke tak,ape y die buat skng, tiba2, org tu ade depan mata! i was so delight, to know He is healthy,having not even a minor health problem (he was at the hospital to make regular medical check up)

And today it happened again.Alhmdulillah.

u dont know how it feel, bila hari-hari baca cerita pasal Idris tawfiq,almost every months recieved his notification bout his activities around the globe, Slalu terfikir, bile la fariez dapat jumpe Sir Idris Tawfiq ni. Pastu tiba2, dapat tahu he is going to give a talk to medical student of Alexandria Univesity!huh.cam mimpi jd kenyataan.

Alhamdulillah.

Mak Fariez cakap,
 Allah sentiasa dgr ape y kita mintak,Allah akan makbulkn Doa kita,

It's just a matter of time,mungkin tak dapat hari ni, kita dapat esok hari,

kalau tak esok pun, bulan depan mungkin, 

kalau tak dapat kat dunia ni, kat akhirat nanti insyallah Allah makbulkan :) 

tp... dgn jalan sabar n mengerjakan solat.

Sorry if the tittle of this entry has mislead you.here are some pics that i managed to snap.

they are now at my bookshelf

priceless, isn't it?

Alexandria community:Nigerian,Egyption,n Malaysian.

Bertahan!

i dont think i can finish reading all these lectures by tomorrow :( nk nangis pun ade.bukan give up, im not giving up, i just cant see any hope here.Padahal banyak bende nk kene bace lagi,da tak betul da fariez ni. somehow i feel like,wanna let it be..redha je la dgn ape y nk jadi esok.Gila ke ape.

Ade ke org lain rase mcm ni?mesti sume org tgh tekun,semangat berkobar-kobar study topozada kan? T_T

Macam sekarang,Fariez sgt takde mood nak bace sume bende alah ni!takde hati nk bace!Tolongla.OnG is soo not my favourite.tp sy sgt nervous jugak!

Tapi sempat lagi pikir: esok nak pakai baju ape.dush!

ah.bertahan la! 29 days to go!!

Hello, ground.

Seriously, the first thing that came out from my mind was "oo okay, macam ni la rase die"  it's not thaat Bad la.i did feel like I need a hug,like,"can someone come and offer me a hug or at least a gentle rub at my spiny part".i need to feel comfort! but then i realizes that..

i just need to choose : to feel bad out of it and grief or just moving on.yeah.betul la kan...note that,today and now on im going to put a positive view in my good or bad events of my life just to make each moment enjoyable.meaningful.better.

i feel complete now,and Ready to go.Let's meet another events in this journey of life!

ohgosh, Finally, i've grown up!

i'm consider myself hugged.

(Myhousemates,they ignore me. i wonder why. have they loss their sense of empathy? T_T" )

But,if anyone care to share a hug,i am more than happy to accept :)

Pilihan anda

"Farieza study tau malam ni, kuatkan semangat..

Sekuat semangat manusia kat stadium tgk Thomas Cup

Semangat sungguh depa.Harap-harap tak tinggal solat Magrib." taqlil

Semua terletak pada diri sendiri,
untuk terus bersemangat menelaah.
untuk sentiasa taat dgn rukun Islam.
atau nak pilih yang sebaliknya?

Berani buat berani la tanggung okie.

semoga setiap usaha kita dekat dunia ni tak sia-sia.