Newlywed with a short update.

Assalamualaikum !
A little quite here,it has been only a month but a LOT of new things were going on.

i've finished my final exam like finally!Alhamdulillah.Then i was busy kemas rumah,packing things and wehuuu, balik Malaysia !! Alhamdulillah finally i'm home for good!

lepas tu busy preparing for eid, it was nothing much actually-masak rendang ayam & nasi impit je.Even my sister in law, kak wadah terkejut we were that simple.Tahun ni we celebrate Eid dekat perak je,ziarah kubur then gerak ke rumah opah dekat Taiping. Takde open house, takde konvoi raya & such.

the week after eid  was filled with pre-wed activities: shopping some things, fitting baju, setelkan pasal pelamin & make up artist, siapkan hantaran, packing goodies bag,(Alhamdulillah, fariez ade jiran2 y rajin tolong,no kidding, they were super awesome!) i went for sauna, facial and make a new friends. Done my inai & ready to get married :D My nikah day was on 24th august, kenduri rumah Fariez was held on the next day, 25th dan kenduri rumah Fairuz on the next week.

lepas tu,setiap hari pun fariez pergi open house! on weekend pergi kenduri kawen.open house selalunya lepas magrib & lepas isya, makanan semuaaaa sedap2. huwaaa, how to maintain an ideal weight u tell me.berat naik 5kg within a month!huh.

besides open house, i went dating with my husband like a lot! keluar shopping jalan-jalan & makan without to worry bout the expenses is the best part! ehehe.

Well, that's my one month life story.

2 pics for your viewing plesure :D have a nice day peeps!

Hari-hari yang sunyi

still i've many lectures to revise but they got abandoned instead.bad girl i am.

i'm very aware that my final exam just hours ahead
but urgh...can't barely focus.
this tranquil environment is slowly suffocating  me to death.
i would prefer to call this house as a gua.seriously.
even i can hear the the clock ticking. tick tick tick..
sunyi gile, like i'm the only living creature in here.
secretly i wish nani/ika were here.
but nah. they got their own life to lead.

how "these people" managed to live alone i wonder?
and sampai hati tkay leave me without a word? :'(
for god sake, we need a community for a reason

i am so going to kacau kak fatin.No, i mean.
i'm going to go study with her.gtg!

Do you suffer from white coat phobia ?

Alang-alang baru lepas menaip essay EILTS & dalam mood melayan perasaan , elokla ku sambungkan saja menaip dekat blog yang kian sunyi dan terpinggir ni.

Not so recently la, Fariez balik Msia, cuti pendek 2 minggu.Mostly kawan-kawan rapat tahu the reason why Fariez balik Msia. Ada yang tak tahu & assumed frz balik sebab nak kawen.okie itu kelakar. Kalau nk kawen, mesti la i jemput u'olls :D

Anyway, sy balik Malaysia sebab saya ni penakut.Itulah kebenarannya.despite being the oldest sister, who always try hard to portray the characters of a strong grown-up women, I'm sometimes a chicken-hearted. kukuku *bunyik ayam* To visit a doctor (as a patients) never never never my favourite!They scared me like seriously. Ehem, pleaseeeeeeee, this is not a joke, and huwaaaa how could someone make fun of me out it :'( .Sampai hati kan..

Eventually, i'm having a never ending stomach problems since yrs & that's a  major self-conflicts.Saya takut jumpe doc, tapi kalau sy tak jumpe doc sampai bile pn sakit sy tak hilang kan.Kalau sakit sikit-sikit sy tahan jela.Selalunyala, sakit sikit-sikit ni, i either took some pills, or did a force vomitting , paksa diri untuk tidur. #truestory 

if u read my previous post or if u are one of  my dearest friends, u may probably notice that i was diagnosed having a gastritis before, later on the doctors said, no u have GERD take this and that as medications.but still the pain never fades away, later the doc changes his mind he suspected that i have parasites in my stomach.argh, ingtkan budak2 je ade cacing dlm perut sbb suka main pasir.rupenya sy y besar gajah ni pun ade cacing.Funny aite. the doctor mestila lagi tahu kan. so makan jela ubat cacing 3 bulan sekali.

But by time, i'm not only have a phobia towards those doctors, i develop satu perasaan baru terhadap mereka. yup. i hate them. well even more by a visit an another.NONE of them ask me for any further investigation.None of them can see the relation between my abdominal pain with my back pain.Such a pity.If  any of them request for endoscopy they may find my stomach lining is all healthy. i believe i don't need that awful tasted antacid. blergh.

Nak jadi cerita,early this yr during my ward rotation in the Emergency department (ED) i had an attack of an acute abdomen.Doctor kat situ advices for an abdomen ultrasound, and walla! There's a single stone building up in my gall bladder.The puzzle was finally solved . That stone la yang cause now an then troubles to my gastrointestinal systems.

One of my attending doctor cakap, "No, u cannot have a gall stone, U are so thin. U know the 4F ? 

female forty fertile fatty?"  T_T

So, this is a take home message from me, common things are common, but there's always always an exception.

To be continued..

Dgn dunianya

salam. hye!

esok saya ada paper derma (final) 10 pagi esok to be exact.
tapi seriously, i'm not ready. not yet. teruk dan mengada kan.
padahal ada 15 lecture je. baca laju-laju bape jam pun dah boleh habis.
mengadanya nak mengantuk la, nak tido la apa lah.

why la sy mcm ni.. T_T

Now. sy dalam dillema. Nak tido atau tak?
simple thing pun cannot decide.

Mengada!

Great People Sleep Less?

So sekarang 5.21 am.

Sepatutnya Fariez tido skng. sebab semalam tido lewat pukul erm 1 pagi mcm tu (tertido sebenarnya) pukul 3 dah bangun semula untuk sahur dan aktiviti sewaktu dengannya. tweeting termasuk sekali.dah 2-3 hari mcm ni.

Sepatutnya tido pukul 11 mlm, bangun pukul 3 pagi, sahur dan kemudian sambung tido lagi.Ini for the sake of tido yang cukup. Lepas SPM. Fariez sangat particular pasal tido.I need at least 4 hours of undisturbed sleep.If ada org kacau, i'll take another cycle of 4 hours sleep again. Over kan.

Sebab dah serik, masa form 4 n form 5 selalu stay up gila-gila, sampai subuh.Energetic je masa study, sbb mmg semangat study. Tambah-tambah ada geng. Geng ABC yang difitnah selalu stay up malam-malam n buat ketupat(if only u understand what ketupat means). mulut jahat mana ntah y buat cerita! Padahal kitorang study kot. anyway, maybe sbb doa-doa org teraniaya ni Allah makbulkan we got straight As instead.Alhamdulillah. Eceh. mengimbau kenangan pula.

Tapi mmg terigt pun kat kat Taiping, pagi-pagi waktu mcm ni. Sejuk. Fariez punya bilik tingkat atas. tapi tak tahu la kenapa kalau stay up duk dekat floor bawah (surau floor bawah) sampai Nani pun merajuk,Sbb frz tinggalkn die study sorang-sorang dekat atas :P . port study, meja menghadap tingkap yang nampak hutan-hutan.Tak ramai y mampu bertahan stay up sampai pagi, tapi ramai yang bangun pagi-pagi untuk study.

ah, itu cerita lama.Fariez sbnrnya terpengaruh dgn artikel dekat sekolah, ada tampal board tangga between Koop n Pejabat (Ahmad boestamam). Ada satu artikel pasal tidur. Dia cakap tidur tak semestinya cukup 6-8 jam (like what i used to believe) It's all depends on the person her/himself, if u are a growing baby, yes u need extra sleep. Ada yang cukup je tido for 4-5 hours and it's more than enough.Not that inspiring me to stay up. but later in the article.

It was mention that many great people in the world sleep lesser than a normal person used to. and because of their real enthusiasm toward things that they've been doing  some of them were staying awake for even days. to mention some name: well, i barely can recalled the names, but Frz igt ada gmbr  Albert Einstein & Sir Isaac Newton together with the article.

So that makes me thinks, if i'm enthusiastic enough towards the subject, i may end up reading/studying it for hours not to fear of losing focus or get bored of it. It's logic to me at that particluar time la. Fariez masa tu form 1.hingusan lagi, but i tell ya my ambitions were HUGE !

ikut kira-kira Fariez masa tu, if tido 7-8 hours per day, 56jam.maka dalam seminggu adalah 2 hari lebih kau tido aje. kalau tido 4 jam only, i'm going to have an extra one day. Logik? Logik pada akal Fariez.so i did practice doing that, sleep less than a normal person.and i've been an extraordinary once. Nak tahu what i get out of that?

Best student untuk 2-3 subjek.1st place dalam class straight 3 tahun.more? 1st place dalam batch  masa form 1 while 2nd dalam batch during form 2 and form 3. ( it was a handsome Indian boy who took my place) i was his big enemy since then.haha. He's doing medic jugak. uh, macam korang kesah.

Anywayy, the biggest success masa tu, bila fariez was awarded as a best student peringkat daerah Manjung (untuk sekolah harian) :') of course ramai lagi yang cemerlang, far better than me from sekolah berasrama. Pelik jugak.may be i've extra sport activities kot, netball here n there, kumpulan nasyeed sekolah,melukis for anti dadah every year, lontar peluru & rejam lembing , yeah maybe that's why. or maybe I was just lucky. Not? Allah know best.

But the down side of it, i'm not good in socializing with people. i don't know how to entertained people or make friends.Jarang sangat hangout, outing sama-sama dengan kawan. I care more bout myself, i dont bother myself to wait for others. Pergi dewan makan sorang-sorang pun tak kisah. senang cerita i'm leaving i'm own life. ada jela, kawan tapi tak macam isi dengan kuku.oh ya. Asmaliza n Azulainey study group dgn Fariez. They help me so much.

Nah, itu cerita klasik. Ada apa dengan barang y lepas?

Sekarang i'm living more or less a normal life. like majority of community did. Study when i feel like studying, or study when the subject caught my interest, study when exam is just near the corner. Watch movie, RM ,drama, when i feel like doing so, blogging, blogwalking & tweeting when im boring, did some religious & motivational reading in between. Sometimes i play games to kill the times and i'm on skype most of time.Make friends, pastu hangout & go shopping if i've extra money.The upmost important thing is i've a proper sleep (with light off ).

So kalau orang cakap, belajar medic tak cukup tido.Sure, I've no objection against that fact, tapi me myself to be very honest, for the past (almost) 5 years, i had enough sleep and even (most of the time) terlebih-lebih tidur..Lemak betul saya ni. (tipu la kalau cakap tak myesal, jeles (sikit) dengan org y mantob gila study pagi ptg siang malam (housemate sy le tew). but yeah, this is what i choose.

Sequale nya tak tahu la bagus ke tak life macam ni.For the time being it's STRESS-less.
but it's not so PRODUCTIVE as well.Dalam 24jam sehari nak dibahagikan dengan semua macam kerja,(kerja?) berapa sangat lah masa yang tinggal untuk study?

wah, panjangnya  type. tak sedar okie. Konklusinya, I need my beauty sleep like right now!! (since fariez baru tidur 2 jam).

Taa Darling~

jadi objek itu yuk!

Wehhuu! Sudah Julai!

sesiapa yang nak kawen bulan 9, maka tinggal 2 bulan untuk siap-siap. Goodluck! (dalam hati :huwaaa, tuhan aje la yang tahu, and siapa-siapa yang tahu. tahu-tahu sendiri jela) hahaha.

Again, takde topik nak type. macam la selalu ade main topik?? well, memang selalunya ada topik y spesifik.like daaa? Selalunya ade isi tersirat yang nak di sampaikan dalam setiap post untuk yang memahami la kan. Tapi bukan untuk kali ini, dan tiada jaminan entry post yang akan datang untuk menjadi lebih ilmiah.

Ekoran stress yang dialami sejak dua menjak ni saya menjadi sedikit weng.Alhamdulillah masih lagi dilindungi Allah daripada rasa putus asa. Itu ajela yang saya doa setiap hari pun. Jauhkan Farieza dr rasa putus asa, berikan Farieza kekuatan.

Kalau nak dianalisiskan apakah yang mendatangkan stress..boleh penuh satu kertas kajang (dengan tulisan besar tulis guna marker pen) kalau tulis guna pen zebra tak sampai pun. adela 5 6 baris jee.Tak banyak pun masalahnya, tak sebesar mana nak dicomparekan dengan erm... dengan sesiapa2 aje la. Dan semua masalah-masalah  tersebut datangnya dari diri ini juga.Yup persepsi diri saya y menerima semua itu sbgai masalah. Dengan itu, jalan penyelesaian nya adalah mudah.Berbaliklah semula kepada diri, tukarkan persepsi.

Kadang-kadang rasa macam nak cipta satu objek yang boleh memantulkan kelemahan dan kekurangan diri luar dalam. Objektifnya supaya ternampak kelemahan sendiri lalu mendatangkan rasa rendah diri.Supaya lebih sedar diri.boley? Semoga mampu di- make up kan jadi cantik. cantik budi pekerti.

Objek ape je la yang punya sifat memantulkan? Kalau cermin, mampunya hanya memantulkan cahaya.Hanya zahir yang terpantul ke mata lalu ditafsir sel-sel otak.Bukan itu yang Fariez nak.Fariez nak benda yang memantulkan apa yang kurang dalam amalan hari ni yang buat hati murung. Apa salah yang Fariez buat hari ni yang buat hati betul-betul kacau. Apa kata-kata yang Fariez lontarkan yang buat mereka rasa jauh dr Fariez.

Akhir sekali bila dipikirin sudah bertemu solusinya.
Objek itu adalah Diri sendiri. Dengan cara bermuhasah.ye saya adalah objek itu!
Saya kena usaha sendiri menganalisis hari-hari, lalu pantulkan di skrin minda untuk di betulkan mana salah silapnya.Betei, semua nya diri sendiri :)

Surah Ar Ra'd, ayat 11.

Hidup ini tak ada jalan pintas. lupa?

(Weng:kali keberapa ntah tak tido sampai pg untuk sem ni,teringin nk minum coffee. tapi ni la masalahnya tak boleh tido!)

Living a routine life

Fariez bagun super early this morning :) bukan sebab fariez tidur awal, fariez tido agak lewat jugak, 12 something. (Tidur pukul 12 malam dah consider lewat la kan, sebab subuh here around 3.30) Fariez bangun semangat-semangat because i know that today i'm going to do something extraordinary- buat donut !

i think i'm tired of doing a routine life. Rountiness are so boring kan? now Fariez da sedar kenapa macam hari-hari pun bermalas-malasan. I'm actually sick of rountiness.(is there such a word as rountiness ?) Somehow rasa, rutin hari-hari bagi false feeling  that everything is okie and stable.wheres, they are NOT. Rasa takde improvement dalam hidup.

itula, i am very glad that dayah did mention bout donuts last day. since i know how to make it, so willingly i offer to make some donuts for her. (i know she wouldn't mind if i lupa or tiba-tiba malas nk buat ) lgpun, sebenarnya, i'm hidding the fact that i yang nak makan donut-donut tu .kekeke.but anyway, i managed to wake up early,and start doing the donuts job.. and tarraaa ~ altogether 30 bijik cute donuts :)

my camera was left at liza's, pic taken guna hp for twicpic. it's not bad at all.

I did bungkus for Dayah, Nik and Sarah. i left some for my housemates (even i know donut is nothing fancy compare to roti sosej yang tkay buat :P )  I ate like 5. and the rest i share with my classmates, yang duduk sebelah-sebelah, depan dan belakang fariez je la kan. but unfortunately, fariez tak nmpak Nik pun hari ni..did he attend the lecture, anyway? Sarah pun tak dtg jugak. :(

will find someday untuk buat donut for Sarah n Nik.

I'm thinking of making burger malaysia (ape name sebenar dia eh?) this is only for the sake of breaking down my daily rountine life.Ada sape-sape teringin? i can always bring extra burger malaysia to the class :D

Taiping - Memoryland

Fariez tak tahu kenapa fariez suka sangat Bandar Taiping. Maybe sebab banyak memori indah tercipta kat sana?? Bila sampai Taiping rasa macam memori-memori tu di re-fresh semula, lalu sebuah filem tanpa bunyi tertayang dlm kotak fikiran..kenangan..

Masa revolusi Mesir, sempat lagi singgah Taiping. Saja nak jalan-jalan.Singgah rumah Opah & cari mee udang kuala Mak Jah.Unfortunately, kedai makan Mak Jah tak bukak hari tu.

Alang-alang da sampai kuale sepetang,kitorang cari jugak la Mee udang. Kedai mana-mana pun tak kisah. (lapar lagi pun) So, ini mee udang dekat-dekat dgn kedai Mak Jah. Sedap!! Fariez puas hati :)

Lepas makan, pergi rumah Opah. Bile sampai-sampai rumah opah berbau durian .Rupanya opah baru je beli durian..ngeh3, puas makan durian.Rehat-rehat jap, lepas tu kami pun bersiap-siap untuk pulang.

Sebelum balik kitorang singgah Taman Tasek Taiping! Jatuh cinta tau dengan tempat ni..Hijau je.. Sejuk mata memandang.

Cantik kan kan kan..Kitorang jalan-jalan je pun, borak-borak.. (tapi berpeluh-peluh jugak la) Tengok orang jogging,tengok orang maen bola, ada yang tangkap udang.. memancing. (boleh ke sebenarnya memancing dekat Taman Tasek Taiping?)

Kalau rumah dekat-dekat sini, mesti fariez datang jogging selalu. ceh berangan.i definitely will apply keje dekat Taiping. Hospital Taiping maybe?

Semua orang ada satu tempat yang die rasa sgt significant dgn diri masing kan.and as for me, it's Taiping!!

oh ya.most of the pics above was photograph by Mr Fairuz. Photography is his passion (but not anymore, i guess). Have look on his Flickr got all his best collections there.

Get Married soon

Is it the tittle that misdirect u to my blog?? if yes, Sorry..but literally i mmg sengaja pun nk misdirect korang.

anyway, "why i'm sooo in a rush to get married?" seriously that particular quest keeps popping up and like whipping through my mind. Even i'm sick with that question coming from mum,sista, brother and it was like the whole family members keep throwing me the same question. (but friends? u know, they never ask but give full of non-stop support :) )

Well, who is there to be blame. Is it okie, if i  blame the sosial pressure for the tension that i'm abandoned with? because i really hope that i'm anaesthezied from all this social pressure.Get free from this tinge of mind torture. Gosh, why is it hard to believe that every single things come combo with a reasons?


fuhh! Enough.
Anyway, sebenarnya kan Fariez was searching bout How to live moderately as a Muslim (inspired by someone) macam mana ntah boleh misdirect ke entry blog orang.Ala,cerita pasal kawen macam magnetic power,having the forces that pull me towards it and give something like a magnetice excitement/ self-excitement or something ?


uh, merepek je.Assignment tak siap lagi T__T 
okiela rader(s), have a read on this.

1. KETIKA MENCARI CALON

Janganlah mencari isteri, tapi carilah ibu bagi anak-anak . 

Janganlah mencari suami, tapi carilah ayah bagi anak-anak.

2. KETIKA MELAMAR

Anda bukan sedang meminta kepada orang tua/wali si gadis, 

tetapi meminta kepada Allah melalui orang tua/wali si gadis.

3. KETIKA AKAD NIKAH

Anda berdua bukan menikah di hadapan penghulu, tetapi menikah di hadapan Allah.

4. KETIKA RESEPSI PERNIKAHAN

Catat dan hitung semua tamu yang datang untuk mendoa’kan anda, 

kerana anda harus berfikir untuk mengundang mereka semua dan meminta maaf apabila anda 

berfikir untuk BERCERAI kerana menyia-nyiakan do’a mereka.

5. KETIKA MALAM PERTAMA

Bersyukur dan bersabarlah. Anda adalah sepasang anak manusia dan bukan sepasang malaikat.

6. SELAMA MENEMPUH HIDUP BERKELUARGA

Sedarilah bahawa jalan yang akan dilalui tidak melalui jalan bertabur bunga,

 tapi juga semak belukar yang penuh onak dan duri.

7. KETIKA RUMAH TANGGA GOYANG

Jangan saling berlepas tangan, tapi sebaliknya justru semakin erat berpegang tangan

 noted: 7 point of wise words above is kopipes from TARTUS

overwhelmed by anger

semalam hari yang tak berapa nak bagus dari pagi sampai malam.

subuh kat Alex skang pukul 4 macamtu.mmg tak pernah la tak tidor lepas subuh.macam biasa akan bangun semula pukul 6 lebih untuk breakfast, iron baju,kemas beg dan pergi kuliah.Sekarang fariez da start posting opthalmology, Lecture start awal, pukul 8 pagi. dan lecturer2 semua pun sharp on the dot.

Semalam bangun pukul 7:20am. what the heck? paling-paling lewat untuk berjalan ke station tram 3minit (paling laju), tunggu tram dan perjalanan ke kuliah selalunya 7 minit at most. Dari station tram ke lecture hall,tingkat 2, 4minit kot? maka perjalanan ke kelas amik masa paling-paling 15minit. Konklusinya kena keluar rumah 7:45 sharp.

bangun at 7:20++am.Gila. Tapi bersyukur sebab sebelum  fariez tidur semalam, da iron baju dan tudung siap-siap. buku da masuk dalam beg dengan labcoat. Botol air da isi.Pendek kan cerita,sampai lecture on time tp tak sempat breakfast. Rasa miserable sbb tak sempat breakfast.

Habis lecture nak makan Burito, maka ambil Tramco dan turun dekat biblotica (Library Alex). Nasib tak bak. Mo'men takk jual Burito hari ni. Huh?? Dari Library nak balik rumah, cam da dekat.. nak amik tramco or teksi mmg tak berbaloi. Pulang la ke rumah berjalan kaki dgn perut yang lapar. Dah samapi rumah baru terfikir kenapa tak beli je bende laen. Nak jugak burito.Mengada.

Sampai rumah internet takde.Since plug router wifi terbakar weeks ago, internet mmg ntah hapa-hapa. Suka-suka je ada takda. Pekerja internet provider tu datang lagi untuk fix. Dia bawak router baru. 30 minit jugak baru siap semua. Elok je die keluar rumah. Router baru tu boleh pulak on off.. Akhir sekali takde internet connection. Die datang semula bawak router laen pulak. lepas Asar mcm tu baru siap semua. Still internet lembab. Die kata sebab penggunnaan internet kitorang da sampai limit.Habis tu selama ni kitorang paid 130egyption pound untuk limited internet??. Die kata ini policy baru. Lol. lawak ape ntah.

currently internet speed kitorang 256 eh?

Lepas magrib, tak tahu la apa yang letih sangat.. Fariez tertido sambil maen Spider Solitaire. Baju kurung tak tukar, contact lens tak bukak. Pukul 12 tgh malam terjaga. nak tidur semula tapi lapar. Baru teringat tak makan malam. tgh hari makan roti butter, yogurt dgn 6 ketul nugget. Teringat Barli yang hangus semalam. Sebab maen solitaire dan tertidur.

Bende yang nasib baik, malam tadi..Fariez masak Megi, Alhamdulillah ada Megi. (jarang beli Megi, sbb kalau ada mesti rasa nk makan selalu) Elok je, da siap megi, hujan turun.. cubalah kalau fariez tak sedar hujan..Tentu kuyup carpet, selimut dengan cadar yang fariez sidai ptg tu.

The worst part. malam tu lepas angakt semua yang di ampaian, fariez cam marah-marah & mengamuk. Rasa bodoh je.Kan bagus kalau sabar??

13.31

"ni rahsia aku.tp cam ntah hape2.tp nak share ngn ko."
"kalau kita tgk jam..i mean, jam digital la,tibe-tibe number die cantek..
maksud nye ade org rindu kat ko."
huh?
"contoh;12:12, 04:40, 23:32...pape jela.."
"ini kepercayaan karut aku, terpulang la ko nk caye ke tak"

okie, it was a conversation between me ngn my friend back at KMPP
tak dapat nk recall her name, muka die pun i da tak igt macam mana.
tp ape y die bitau, sampai skng Fariez igt.

and lately, asal tgk jam je. mesti no cantek.
sape y rindu kat Fariez ni??

i miss u too
haha.bwerk.bwerk!

lepas ni, ade la org asyik tgk jam je.. :P

My everyday fear.

I'm wondering, is there any people out there is having the same chronic health problem like me.How they manage it?

The problem that im having is not that serious,well, perhaps that's the only sentence that can push me fowards and make me continue my daily life .It has something to do with my large bowel.despite of only a pretty mild pain,every now and then it gives a feeling of discomfort.to some extent it makes me feels like cutting my abdomen and taking out the bowel stuffs and check what the hell is going in there.sigh~

The 1st month i refered it to a doc, he said it just an inflammation.then he prescribed me some drugs to release the so called inflammation and an analgesic.Thank God,the pain went off with the drugs, but a week later, when i am free from those freaking drugs the pain persist.but it became somewhat milder.

a month later, i went to the same doc again, he asked my complaint ,and he did an ascultation.thats all!.in just less than 1 minutes.not worth for my 70 Egyption pound.He asked nothing bout the nature of the pain.well u know, the one that we learn in class, the type of the pain,duration, severity,bla bla and the list goes on..even if he is a professional enough, can he able to diagnose without listening to the patient? i have no idea. what i know is i hate to see a doc. but anyway, he prescibed me the very same drugs, plus 2 new drugs.One of it is a Broad spectrum Antiprotozoal! He suspect me to have parasite??eeuw!

what ever..

anyway,it is not exactly the pain which intefere my life, but it is my brain which cant stop thinking of it. I barely able to focus on anything.Expecially during class.well, im in Colorectal department right now, studying about surgery.my everyday class is enough to frighten me! aa.what do u xpect me to feel?

Recently we learned about surgery of stomas, and we had a chance to see some patient with it.Oh my..i dont wanna have that scary thing on my stomach..tolong la.tolong la.tolong la.

Am i too much?yeah, psycho women. (T.T).

incase u dont know what is stoma, im the psycho women with a kind heart had search a pic for you.njoy the pic! anything else bout it,go google it for yourself ok.

anyhoo, this is way differ from the one that we saw in the ward.

the patients that we observed have the same bulging thingy which is an intestine, with inflammation skin all around it and some fecal matter . The Doc that teach us said that the one that we saw was a bad stoma, and he said the surgeons are learning to make a better stoma.what?

Life is short !!

Betapa hidup ini sementara.
ntah sampai bila nyawa yang ALLAH pinjamkan ini akan di ambil semula.
lemah diri bila merasa kan saat-saat kematian yang kian hampir.
takut..dgn dosa-dosa yang akan tarik mengheret msuk ke neraka.


kawan-kawan, maaf kan salah silap fariez.
maafkan fariez atas hak sahabat2 yang frz tak tunaikan.
maafkan fariez. atas bahasa-bahasa yang kasar dan meyakitkan hati.

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syahdu rase tgh malam ni..ade sesuatu yang meruntun jiwa.
meyentak perasaan yang selama ini selesa.


Ya ALLAH , selamatkan mereka.

Ya ALLAH, selamatkan mereka.

Ya ALLAH, selamatkan mereka.

Allah lebih meyayangi nya ..Saudara Ammar bin Zulkifli , telah di panggil "pulang".

Al-fatihah.

The Quiz know me better?

well.
ika, i took the test already! it's a weird test.
but i like it anyway.here is the results.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.(Soalan untuk ika n emi : AM I A PROBLEM SOLVER WHO LISTEN ON BOTH SIDES ?)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
:)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

walla.i can't deny the fact that most of the things mention above are pretty true.

Those people who are dear to me would definitely know it.
so Ika, do u have any comments?

O yeah, i recommend u to try this simple test.It just takes some seconds to answers all the questions.

Nani, cai, kekda, zizal. try la.

He break my HEART

I know it well, what he's saying it just for my own sake.
I know that he cares for me so much.
If not, he would not asked me to come and meet him every Thursday evening.

(lol),thought it's another drama from me? indeed it is.;P

actually I'm talking about Dr Mahmoud.
He knows that i love those caffeine very much,
any kind of them,coffee, latte, mocha.
I told him, previously, on our 1st meeting.
but today, he insist me to stop drinking it for my whole life.
u know,he always being a good doctor, spoke nicely, like a father used to be,
but then when he gives that order, i spontaneously give a face, a sad one.
but he doesn't seem to be effected.and continue by saying
"or else, you'll burn your stomach"
i was like..tak best langsung.what a life would it be without caffeine?

well, i can't deny that a part of me is actually happy by the fact that I'm now free from those freaking drugs. No more Ranitidine that give unexplained headache.( i better search for the reasons,you may share if u know) No more Nexium(Esomeprazole) !this is much relieving. It cost me 80 egyption pounds for only two weeks! and not to mention Mosapride, another 40 L.E.
yeah,no more worrying bout being into drugs toxicity.( i strictly follow the doctor instruction,there's suppose to be no drugs toxicity. it's just freaky me with over cautious about it)

To my certain knowledge drugs, basically any drugs.. they have a magic action on relieving any disease that they are concern to, but in the very same time we have to pay for it.(Nothing is free man...)yes..we've to face the drugs side effects.

ever heard bout the wealth is health?
Lose it for a while, then you'll know how priceless it is.

let's lead a healthy life style!!

1.say no to junkies. what the purpose of lunch box anyway?
2.eat well.avoid over eating.
3.less caffeine.(caffeine is hell to the liver? 'o' )
4.erm..what else..erm..
5.a big NO for smoking ;P
6.perhaps a regular exercise?
7.erm..sleep well! :) not in excess

okie.gtg!need to study pharmacology.
"Where 's your UPPER BOX?!!!!!"