Nobody is perfect

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A day before yesterday, i had a fight with him. and he eventually showed me his true color. (which is NOT good, and it somehow freak me)He tried so hard to explain, i heard his voice, but my mind was somewhere else. and he just knew that i'm not there. and asked me, "what am i thinking about?" for god sake i'll never tell him. so i said nothing. it is so typical me.

At first we were like indirectly blaming each other, i was totally in control at first,I was not angry at all.but then, it turned out differently when i knew he purposely ignored my sms.(he told me) so unbelievable! ( yup, i forget nobody is perfect, neither him) Why on earth i'm still expecting that he is way different. well, I'm wrong! Nobody is perfect, that is a real fact.

After the session of blaming each other didn't seem to bring any solution, he start to blame others( not me, someone else). but i felt that is not their fault and it's not fair either, so i stand up for them.

I knew i am very irresistible, i knew it. and walla! I've made him change his words, he no longer blaming other but instead he blame himself. i found it's sweets.. when he helplessly said. "okie, then it's my mistake la " i wanted to laugh, ( u may not understand why, even i don't ) .. but i really felt that he act is sweets .then i said "okie2..it's your fault :) "

usually, i would felt guilty and i'll say, "okie la it's mine,not yours" "seriously, it's me"

but that night, i knew it's mine, but instead of continue arguing with him, i just agree to what he is saying. u get me?i just want all this to be over.

but, i guess he didn't felt good when i agree that it's all his..

to cut it short.. at last we both together said, "it's our fault"

then , i went to sleep while he continues his day.

Nobody is perfect. I'm nobody.

Optimism bloom

turkey_roses at Taksim, originally uploaded by connie.ME.connie.

Expect to have hope rekindled.

Expect your prayers to be answered in wondrous way.

The dry seasons in life do not last.

The spring rains will come again.

-Sarah Ban Breathnach.

spiritual?

baru2 nie kak nik tegur fariez kat Ym,wawa~ malu sgt, sbb bukan fariez y tegur kak nik dulu.da la lama fariez tak ziarah rumah kak nik. ingat mase mula2 smpai kat bumi mesir nie, rumah tue la tempat y kerap fariez pergi. tambah2 bile ade problem.(teruk betul kn) mungkin sebab kak nik akak SC (smart cycle) fariez buat fariez senang dengar kak nik.kak ni selalu berpesan2, ayat2 kak nik menampakkn die seorang y tegas dalam bab2 agama nie. untung ila ade kakak cam kak nik .(i dun have any)

kak nik tak tnye banayk pun, biasala time exam nie, perbualan selalu nye tak off topic,sume pasal exam "camne exam, okie ke tak okie, banyak lagi ke paper, paper semalam mcm mane, da abes study ke....."(dalam hati frz, terharu sgt, kak nik y sibuk ngn clinical year sempat lagi luangkn mase tanya khabar adek2.walaupun tak lama, tapi mmg terkesan dalam hati..
boleh ke fariez jadi mcm kak nik?

" ok la fariz.. knik nk kuar dulu... knik dedicate ayat tadabur utk fariz ,
al ankabut :69..krm slm ahli bet . gluck! rbbuna ysahhil."

dalam kehidupan dunia ini hanya senda gurau dan permaianan,Dan sesungguhnya negeri akhirat itulah kehidupan y sebenarnya, sekiranya mereka mengetahui

laju je kak nik type, tak sempat fariez ckp pape pun..fariez sempat ckp okie je. pastue k nik da offline.

orang cakap, untuk ajak org ke arah kebaikan kite tak semesti nye gunekan kata2. fariez sgt setuju bende tu.. sbb nye kak nik tak penah pun ckap, suruh kitorang ikut ape y die buat.. tapi fariez selalu rase nk jadi mcm kak nik.tambah2 lepas sc, berkobar2 semangat..yela, baru lepas dgr nasihat..tapi bile da lame2,nape la fariez slalu lupe.. :(

sebab tue la, kite kne berpesan2 kn...

gambar kat kak nik nie, fariez amik mse sukaneka hari tue, saje je datang awal walaupun fariez bukan AJK. (tapi tak tolong pun, sibuk snap gambar org). kak nik senyum je waktu tu, tapi dalam hati fariez mase tue sedeh sgt.. sbb tahun depan belum tentu kak nik ade bersukaneka ngn kitorang lagi.(insyallah kak nik abes awal tahun depan). ;( nanti tinggal kitorang je, kitorang la y kne jage diri sendiri, kne ingtkn diri sendiri..

mampu ke?? mana ade kemahuan di situ ade jalan kn..erm..

big gals dun cry

"....The path that I'm walking, I must go alone

I must take the baby steps till I'm full grown, full grown.

Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?

And I forsee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know

That this has nothing to do with you

It's personal, myself and I

We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket

But I've got to get a move on with my life

It's time to be a big girl now

And big girls don't cry ..." fergie

"big gal sometimes do cry.." unknown wink*