Honeymoon time!

Kitorang dah habis exam!! kheir insyaAllah.

Azab jugak nak menghabiskan exam clinical surgery last ni,tunggu turn berjam-jam.

Mula-mula semua cuak-cuak lagi. tekun je baca buku.

 Last minutes discussion..seboleh-bolehnya

 Random picture, caught Migha day dreaming.. ehehehe

Nik nabilah  with her best partner.

 Dah penat revise, semua org start bergambar. excited lebih nak habis exam.

 kind-hearted & easy to get along people.i believe, they gonna be a good insyaAllah

  so sweet kawan-kawan saya ni.manis macam gula. aww.

 Tak boleh nak dinafikan,some persons are special, they touch our heart and no matter what had happened they will stay in our heart forever. <3<3<3

 Case for our exam.*BADII*  BCC, Achalasia, Lumbar Disc Prolapse, Inguinal hernia, Instestinal onstruction. sure i'll remember this sampai kerja sampai bile-bile. 

 Revise lagi, tapi kali ni landing atas katil, macam study dekat rumah.

 last but not least, muka yang dah penat tunggu turn! huwarggh, mcam tak percaya dah habis exam> thus this gonna be my last entry bout medical school.Seriously, someone  slap me on the face please. hehehe. 

i will never be able to thank Allah enough! sangat banyak nikmatnya..Ya Rahman Ya Rahim :')

wearing my best smile!

stressful days begin to wear away,exciting days are waiting ahead!

still ada satu exam lagi, this's truely the final one! can't wait.
pagi-pagi td, our student representative informed that the coming exam will be just a written exam.
no oral exam,?no long case? and no need to face any doctor! Seriously?

phew!sgt melegakan, tapi kan...
bile fariez fikir balik, if there's any doc to evaluate pun okie je.
u know, doktor kat sini sgt murah hati..kalau jawab dgn betul confirm dpt high marks,
kalau jawab tak betul pun still markah okie je.tak pernah ade doctor y macam sengaja nk fail kn students.
kalau kita tak tahu jawapan, diorang akan ajar time tu.they are purely kind like that.May God bless.


teringat dulu doc resident pernah cakap" don't worry the professors are all benign" ahah.

* * * * * * * * *

anyhow, smlm dah macam hari last persekolahan.happy faces were everywhere! people were taking pictures like there's no tomorrow.

Fariez tak bergambar sgt, i'm enjoying myself dengan menghatar invitation kad! perasaan yang best tak tipu. ngeee :D i've been waiting for that moment since years, like finally kan... :D


yelah, kita dah rancang dgn elok, tp sebenarnya rancangan Allah adalah y terbaik.Tq Allah.i know,i should thanks Allah more, and stop complaining.Everyone should!

oh ya,i've so limited invitation cards,6th years ade 200 student for real. So tak semua dapat, close friends& who's coming are my priority, and some got to share the card. jgn amik hati  ye sayang2 sekalian. All are invited regardlessly.


I'm loving the colours & the simplicity ! nah i love all about it.this is how the card look like.love love.

u see, merah is forever my fav colour :)

2nd last! pheeuw

Esok exam paper surgery ! time really flies :D

Cardiothoracic surgery, Pead surgery, Neurosurgery, Vascular surgery dgn ape ntah satu lagi. ececeh *buat-buat lupe :D All subjects in one paper bebeh! 

Doa saya yang kudus..

Semoga esok soalan semua senang-senang boleh jawab laju-laju dengan tulisan besar cantek & kemas. Doktor semak jawapan dengan senang hati sambil senyum gembira, lalu bermurah hati bagi markah tinggi-tinggi. Amin.Amin.

study-study jugak, Al-quran satu juzuk sehari & solat teraweh, tahajud jgn lupe yaw.

rabbi yassir wala tu'assir

Now that my last class had already ended.Seriously?!

I dont have mixed feelings or whatsoever, i just wakeup in the morning, dengan perasaan yang  tak beza dengan semalam, prepared my breakfast, having  a cuppa hot milo and that's when i sedar  i'm late already!grab beg sekolah and ready for school! aha, exactly the same mcm smlm. cuma hari  i bring a camera together, in case if i need it.

tapi takde mood nak bergambar ke hape. takde perasaan. Selama ni mcm bayangkan that i'm so gonna be the happiest person on earth on my last day of school. sangat la tak. terfikir2, banyak lagi y nak kena cover. Cardiothoracic, palstic surgery, peads surgery, neurosurgery...not to mention internal medicine. *pengsan*
but akhir-akhir kelas, bila semua orang pun busy with their cameras,frz manage to put a smile & join diorang bergambr.i so adela sekeping dua gambar di hari last persekolahan. hope the pictures will turn out nice.

lecture & clinical round dah habis, exam esok lusa je. tapi banyyyyyyakkkk lagi tak habis baca T_T' terukkan? dahla, penat dah rasa teruk dgn diri sendiri.

harap-harap boleh habiskan study lectures neurosurgery malam ni.still i have 40pages to read!
Peads ade lagi beberapa lectures.
carditohoracic & vascular frz nak jawab mcqs je la.
esok pagi habiskan plastic surgery.
malamnya revise xray, CT & MRI & clinical cases.

*deep breath*

rabbi yassir wala tu'assir
May Allah grant us (all the 6th year students) the strength to go trough this.

ICU ward

Runtuh hati tengok pesakit-pesakit dekat ICU ward, they are critically ill like seriously. Pesakit tak kira usia, ada yang tua, ada yang masih muda, muda lagi dari Fariez.

Ada yang jantungnya tak mampu lagi berdegup, diberi bantuan pacemaker, yang tak mampu menyedut nafas, diberi bantuan mechanical ventilator. Sumber energy bukan lagi nasi ayam, ayam goreng, cuma cecair protein dan karbohidrat, dan jus buah yang masuknya melalui tiub-tiub melalui mulut atau hidung. Terbaring lemah je.

paling meruntun hati, ada satu female patient, very young punya masalah pernafasan dan saluran darah, kedua-kedua tangan dah gangrene. Esok lusa pasti  kena amputate. Apa makna hidup tanpa tangan? Macam mana nak siapakan makanan untuk anak-anak dan keluarga, nak buat kerja-kerja rumah, nak bekerja mencari sesuap nasi, nak tadah tangan untuk berdoa? :'( Ya Allah, beri ketabahan buat mereka, dan keluarga-keluarga mereka. Semoga mereka tergolong dalam orang-orang yang sbr..

pengalaman di ward ICU betul-betul mengingatkan hati ini.

beringatlah ketika sihat sebelum sakit, yakni lakukan lah perkara-perkara yang bermanfaat buat diri, dan masyarakat.ketika masih kuat dan berkemampuan.

Maha besar dan tak ternilai nikmat yang Allah dah beri, walaupun ianya hanya sepasang tangan..

Tapi sedikit sangat hati ni bersyukur, beryukur hanya bila dapat sesuatu, tapi jarang bersyukur dengan apa yang ada.

Jadikanlah kami hamba-hamba yang bersyukur....

update: pagi-pagi tadi, Fariez pergi ke ward yang sama, tercari-cari patient perempuan tu, Nurse cakap, dia dah meninggal. Al-Fatihah.

jatuh cinta dengan Hematology.

yeah! lagi seminggu nak balik Msia. Flight Jumaat minggu depan! macam tak percaya :)

First year waktu winter pergi Sinai, Tahun 2 join trip Luxor & Aswan, tahun 3 pergi Turky,
tahun 4, 5, 6 balik Msia je kerja. i love it to be like that :)

waktu tahun 4 tu, mula-mula mak cakap, tak payah lah balik, pergi la jalan mana-mana. Tapi bile dah dekat cuti winter, mak tanya, "Kakak dah beli tiket balik Malaysia ke?" kekeke. 

Flight malamjumaat, tapi pagi tu Fariez ada exam OSCE internal medicine-case: geriatric, endocrine, pulmonary & hematology. Thank god takde Rheumatology. Fariez tak suka buat muscle and skeleton examination. Eh tapi geriatric ade case osteoarthritis and osteoporosis maknanya kena buat jugak la muscle and skeleton examnination T_T!

Sekarang ni susah sangat nak study- kenapa ntah malas sangat!

padahal kalau dah start baca buku, rasa taknak benti baca. Tambah-tambah case hemato, semua pun menarik! sukenya case hemato. pulmonary pun best, tapi asyik deal dengan smokers je (lelaki) , asyik-asyik case COPD,balik-balik case COPD. so tak berapa suka sangat.

Selama ni fariez tak pernah minat medicine, i mean internal med. Tak suka. Maybe sebab dulu dapat 2 bulan dekat department Geriatric & GIT- tak menarik sgt. dapat resident doc yang tak berapa appealing. Life die nampak dull je. muka tak pernah happy. 

Dulu, ingat nak amik pead, bile blaja opthal, rasa nak futher opthal, lepas belajar derm, minat derm pulak. Sekarang suka hemato! :P

Doc hemato tu pesan, life gonna be tough when u choose medicine, but life must be go on. just enjoy it! Doc tu bagus gile, fariez kalau sakit kepala sikit pun, fariez akan tidur and left buku-buku aside. Tak kuasa nk baca buku waktu sakit kepala. Tapi doc ni, waktu die sakit teruk (prodrome hepatitis) die muntah-muntah, severely nauseated, asal baca buku je die tertido (severely lethargic) tapi die bangun basuh-basuh muka, sambung baca buku lagi, bila dia tertido lagi, dia bangun basuh-basuh muka, then start study lagi. OMG, sangat tabah!

Sy nak jadi macam dia!

flexible and less stress

Pada tahun sebelum 1966,pakar thoracic masih mengunakan bronchoscopy kaku. Bronchoscopy kaku punya fungsi yang terbatas, bahagian bronchus dan ke bawah tidak dapat divisual kan. Namun begitu, Encik Ikeda yang berasal dari Jepun dengan motto  "there is more hope with the bronchoscope" telah mencipta fleksibel bronchoscopy. dengan berdiameter lebih kecil dan dengan kemampuannya untuk melentur 180 darjah membolehkan ia pergi lebih jauh ke dalam ranting-ranting bronchi. Bagus bukan?

Jika anda seorang doktor adakah anda akan terus membuang rigid bronchoscopy kaku dan hanya menggunakan bronchoscopy fleksibel untul memvisual bahagian-bahagian pernafasan?

Tidak, kita tidak perlu berbuat begitu, walau rigid bronchoscopy punya banyak limitasi, ia jugak punya kelebihan. Generalnya,untuk foreign body removal is best done by rigid bronchoscopy.

Actually, hari ni kami ada kelas procedure bronchoscopy.

Semua orang dapat cuba. Doc cakap senang je, tak cuba tak tahu kan. tapi bagi Fariez yang 1st time ni, Fariez takde la rasa senang,tersangkut-sangkut. :)

Dengar cerita, untuk sekian kalinya cuti pendek musim sejuk akan bertukar lagi. Ini adalah kali 3 ! wah, begitula suasana hidup berkerja dengan Arab. tiada yang tetap.

Jadi pengajaran hari ni, Kalau nak dikaitkan dengan kelas tadi :marilah kita jadi seperti  bronchoscopy, menjadi lebih fleksibel, fleksibel dengan sebarang perubahan. Lebih fleksibel lebih kurang tekanan. seperti tajuk entry hari ini, flexible and less stress. walau apa pun keputusan Doc Fathy nanti, kita terima dgn hati yang terbuka. (Jangan la siapa-siapa attack Effa (6th years student representative ), kesian Effa, banyak benda dia nak kena fikir.

P/s: Tapi jangan fleksibel dalam semua benda. Waktu bila kena sepatutnya kena rigid? fikir-fikirkan lah :)

Identification : Negroid and Asian

Negroid skull

Negroid skull can be identify  cause it owns specific characters:

The skull is elongated (dolycocephaly )

The alveolar margin of the maxillla is protruded (prognathism)

The hard palate is flat

The nasal orifices are wide

The frontal suture is persistent and never fuse.

Asian Skull

while in asian skull,

The skull is almost wide as long (brachycephal )

The face is flat, not prognathic

The nasal spine is clearly much higher

The nasal orifices are oval shape

The opening of the orbits are circular

:p esok paper forensic sbnrnye, tgh baca topic identification

Good intentions are never enough

sy terigt tahun lepas, kami melawat elderly house, Doc hisham yang bawak kitorang. we were very excited  to have that trip it shows on our faces. biasalah, terlepas dari kelas, siapa yang tak gembira. Happy-happy jugak, but deep inside,i have a mix feelings.well, anyway..

What i want to highlight is, last time, during the eldery house visit, there was Doc Hisham with his sweet reminder . Apa yang dia buat? He asks us to close our eyes and insists us to make a second thought of good intentions. what your intention coming to this elderly houses?

so , yeah, what was your intention of  going to El-Hanan?

                 

So excited!

for tomorrow gonna be our last day in Forensic department and holidays are waiting! wee ~

Me and Tkay are going to the beach! i hope  that everything gonna be just fine.just fine. 

InsyaAllah.

Selesai 3 perkara. Assignment salah satu.

Ada lagi berapa hari je lagi nak habis round Forensic n toxicology,3 hari lagi to be exact. kalau ada y tertanya-tanya, fariez dah pergi tgk mayat ke, bedah-bedah mayat ke. Jawapan : hahahha manade kelas forensic kitorang tgk mayat, banyak lagi bende lain yang nak kena belajar selain dari tgk-tgk mayat okie. Kalau amik degree forensic ye kot,mmg itu aje la keje nye kot. (agaknya la)

So far, for the past 3 weeks, Fariez dah belajar baaaaaaaaanyak benda. cewah. Antaranya, erm.. macam mana nak describes wounds;contused, lacerated,incised, stab wound, causes of deaths in any wounded persons,each wounds kena tahu what kind of instrument that has been used. Macam senang je kan?

Fariez belajar jugak macam mana nak tulis death certicifate, macam senang jugakla,tapi i aware that it wont be that easy peasy when i'd to do it for real.even waktu exam practical nanti (osce) mesti macam gelabah tak tahu nk tulis.haha. Biasalah sympathetic rush.

Kelas yang macam menarik, and fariez tak pernah terpikir kena belajar is Ballistic class; in which kitorang kena belajar types of fireguns (tak bnyk pun adela 2 3 jenis,but still..), the mechanism of firing, the bullets, it's types and it's overall structures. Lepas tu belajar firearm injury,how the injuries look like, how to estimate the distances of the assailant from the victims, and so on, banyak kot.

Kelas CSI belajar pasal evidences, circumstance,belajar finger prints, test-test y digunakan untuk check darah n semen, Genetic markers, illegal abortion, belajar case infanticide (bunuh baby baru lahir), child abuse case, sexual abuse, sodomy( liwat), rape case and what to do during examination of the victims.

oh banyaknya nak kena baca!

itu baru forensic, Toxicology basically belajar pasal poison,belajar jugak psl drugs abuse, toxic seeds, senang cerita semua jenis keracunanan la kitorang belajar, dengan presentation of patients, together with the line of treatments. Ala-ala kelas pharmacology gitu. fariez suka jugak la, sbb macam senang,(read: MACAM senang ), yela, baca je pun. Tapi, ngeh3 baru 2 jenis drugs frz baca. (hurm, insyallah, i'll do my best habiskan baca before masuk Family Medicine )

Alih-alih sekarang , dah nak habis posting dan nak exam dah pun.

Actually, tadi baru habis je assignment presentation,Honestly, Fariez mmg sgt sgt tak prepare (the truth is i'm so not a fan in doing assignment,i'm lacking of confident, and have big trouble in pronunciation, tapi itu la, practice make perfect kan, walaupun tak de la improve much, at least skng dah takde tremors :) .So on the way nak pergi kelas td selawat dah bnyak2 sepanjang jalan nak ke tram station.Cuak tau. Doc Aber nampak macam perfectionist, so fariez takutla presentation ni tak below her expectation. Fariez doa jugak, mintak2 Doc cancel presentatipon hari ni, lol :P kalau cancel macam la nak prepare  lagi, tak ada nye.. pastu doa kalau tak cancel pun, harap2 doc puas hati dgn presentation kitorang,

Alhamdulillah, Doc Aber happy. She was very satisfied and generously gave all of us a full marks!! fuh lega.*lap-lap peluh* Sebab hati senang, Fariez spend sikit masa menaip dekat blog ni.

oh ya, nmpk kat twitter td, hani cakap elaun bulan 11 dah masuk, like seriously, wah~ mcm tak percaya! Elaun bulan 10 pun tak usik lagi, elaun bulan 11 dah masuk. so malam ni dinner dekat San Stefano la :)

takde hati

semalam fariez tidur lama gila sampai rasa macam tulang belakang dah takde.
Terus bangun cepat-cepat sebab takut!lol

 menyesal tangguh2 baca lectures, sbb pagi ni baca sejam lepas tu dah tak larat! continue jugak baca tapi  baca tanpa perasaan.Fariez baca tulisan kat bungkusan makanan pun ade feel lagi. shesssh, menci la bila there's only written words to be memorized. i hate the book it self! tak menarik.

Semalam hujan kat sini. tak tahu la lebat ke tak, sbb fariez tidu tak sedar apa. huwaa~ winter is approaching! 

6th year !

Ladies n gentleman, i'm now in my 6th year! My final year!

still, I am rolling in disbelief ,because years that had past just feel like yesterday.
esok dah start kelas, fariez akan posting forensic for weeks! OMG forensic, doesn't it sound interesting? but a friend of friend of mine said forensic has nothing much to offer and such it's such a boring course.Really? Though i believe people may have difference opinion and their reactions towards things may varies. I might enjoy Forensic while he's not. tengok la nanti macam mana kan.

erm,It's breezing here, i'm not sure bout the season we are in, but i love the weather so much. It's no longer boiling hot like before, and it's not winter yet. Just a nice weather. Sesuai la kalau nak pergi kelas berjalan kaki. uh? :P well, kite tgk la nanti macam mana.

Seriously dah tahun 6?

let's start kicking to the fullness!

Dgn dunianya

salam. hye!

esok saya ada paper derma (final) 10 pagi esok to be exact.
tapi seriously, i'm not ready. not yet. teruk dan mengada kan.
padahal ada 15 lecture je. baca laju-laju bape jam pun dah boleh habis.
mengadanya nak mengantuk la, nak tido la apa lah.

why la sy mcm ni.. T_T

Now. sy dalam dillema. Nak tido atau tak?
simple thing pun cannot decide.

Mengada!

Great People Sleep Less?

So sekarang 5.21 am.

Sepatutnya Fariez tido skng. sebab semalam tido lewat pukul erm 1 pagi mcm tu (tertido sebenarnya) pukul 3 dah bangun semula untuk sahur dan aktiviti sewaktu dengannya. tweeting termasuk sekali.dah 2-3 hari mcm ni.

Sepatutnya tido pukul 11 mlm, bangun pukul 3 pagi, sahur dan kemudian sambung tido lagi.Ini for the sake of tido yang cukup. Lepas SPM. Fariez sangat particular pasal tido.I need at least 4 hours of undisturbed sleep.If ada org kacau, i'll take another cycle of 4 hours sleep again. Over kan.

Sebab dah serik, masa form 4 n form 5 selalu stay up gila-gila, sampai subuh.Energetic je masa study, sbb mmg semangat study. Tambah-tambah ada geng. Geng ABC yang difitnah selalu stay up malam-malam n buat ketupat(if only u understand what ketupat means). mulut jahat mana ntah y buat cerita! Padahal kitorang study kot. anyway, maybe sbb doa-doa org teraniaya ni Allah makbulkan we got straight As instead.Alhamdulillah. Eceh. mengimbau kenangan pula.

Tapi mmg terigt pun kat kat Taiping, pagi-pagi waktu mcm ni. Sejuk. Fariez punya bilik tingkat atas. tapi tak tahu la kenapa kalau stay up duk dekat floor bawah (surau floor bawah) sampai Nani pun merajuk,Sbb frz tinggalkn die study sorang-sorang dekat atas :P . port study, meja menghadap tingkap yang nampak hutan-hutan.Tak ramai y mampu bertahan stay up sampai pagi, tapi ramai yang bangun pagi-pagi untuk study.

ah, itu cerita lama.Fariez sbnrnya terpengaruh dgn artikel dekat sekolah, ada tampal board tangga between Koop n Pejabat (Ahmad boestamam). Ada satu artikel pasal tidur. Dia cakap tidur tak semestinya cukup 6-8 jam (like what i used to believe) It's all depends on the person her/himself, if u are a growing baby, yes u need extra sleep. Ada yang cukup je tido for 4-5 hours and it's more than enough.Not that inspiring me to stay up. but later in the article.

It was mention that many great people in the world sleep lesser than a normal person used to. and because of their real enthusiasm toward things that they've been doing  some of them were staying awake for even days. to mention some name: well, i barely can recalled the names, but Frz igt ada gmbr  Albert Einstein &amp;amp;amp; Sir Isaac Newton together with the article.

So that makes me thinks, if i'm enthusiastic enough towards the subject, i may end up reading/studying it for hours not to fear of losing focus or get bored of it. It's logic to me at that particluar time la. Fariez masa tu form 1.hingusan lagi, but i tell ya my ambitions were HUGE !

ikut kira-kira Fariez masa tu, if tido 7-8 hours per day, 56jam.maka dalam seminggu adalah 2 hari lebih kau tido aje. kalau tido 4 jam only, i'm going to have an extra one day. Logik? Logik pada akal Fariez.so i did practice doing that, sleep less than a normal person.and i've been an extraordinary once. Nak tahu what i get out of that?

Best student untuk 2-3 subjek.1st place dalam class straight 3 tahun.more? 1st place dalam batch  masa form 1 while 2nd dalam batch during form 2 and form 3. ( it was a handsome Indian boy who took my place) i was his big enemy since then.haha. He's doing medic jugak. uh, macam korang kesah.

Anywayy, the biggest success masa tu, bila fariez was awarded as a best student peringkat daerah Manjung (untuk sekolah harian) :') of course ramai lagi yang cemerlang, far better than me from sekolah berasrama. Pelik jugak.may be i've extra sport activities kot, netball here n there, kumpulan nasyeed sekolah,melukis for anti dadah every year, lontar peluru &amp;amp;amp; rejam lembing , yeah maybe that's why. or maybe I was just lucky. Not? Allah know best.

But the down side of it, i'm not good in socializing with people. i don't know how to entertained people or make friends.Jarang sangat hangout, outing sama-sama dengan kawan. I care more bout myself, i dont bother myself to wait for others. Pergi dewan makan sorang-sorang pun tak kisah. senang cerita i'm leaving i'm own life. ada jela, kawan tapi tak macam isi dengan kuku.oh ya. Asmaliza n Azulainey study group dgn Fariez. They help me so much.

Nah, itu cerita klasik. Ada apa dengan barang y lepas?

Sekarang i'm living more or less a normal life. like majority of community did. Study when i feel like studying, or study when the subject caught my interest, study when exam is just near the corner. Watch movie, RM ,drama, when i feel like doing so, blogging, blogwalking &amp;amp;amp; tweeting when im boring, did some religious &amp;amp;amp; motivational reading in between. Sometimes i play games to kill the times and i'm on skype most of time.Make friends, pastu hangout &amp;amp;amp; go shopping if i've extra money.The upmost important thing is i've a proper sleep (with light off ).

So kalau orang cakap, belajar medic tak cukup tido.Sure, I've no objection against that fact, tapi me myself to be very honest, for the past (almost) 5 years, i had enough sleep and even (most of the time) terlebih-lebih tidur..Lemak betul saya ni. (tipu la kalau cakap tak myesal, jeles (sikit) dengan org y mantob gila study pagi ptg siang malam (housemate sy le tew). but yeah, this is what i choose.

Sequale nya tak tahu la bagus ke tak life macam ni.For the time being it's STRESS-less.
but it's not so PRODUCTIVE as well.Dalam 24jam sehari nak dibahagikan dengan semua macam kerja,(kerja?) berapa sangat lah masa yang tinggal untuk study?

wah, panjangnya  type. tak sedar okie. Konklusinya, I need my beauty sleep like right now!! (since fariez baru tidur 2 jam).

Taa Darling~

Mind you, there's no shortcut

"If you are too focused on the result and try to develop shortcuts, you are going to have to pay it back later somehow"

Rasa macam ayat ni  mmg dilempar khas untuk Fariez.Membayangkan dasyatnya draw back which i'll have to face in the future gara-gara gaya hidup sebagai student yang sambil lewa is exactly macam thunder strucking on my head.not less.Fuh bikin berderau darah satu badan.

Then,dua tiga kali jugak Fariez ulang baca. Dalam kotak minda ni,ayat tu automatik ter-translate dalam bahasa Msia "Kalau kau sibuk sangat pasal end result (graduated), dan sambil lewa dalam belajar medik, terima la padahnya nanti, bila kau menjadi seorang Doc.Ignorance Doktor secara tepat!"for real i heard me saying that to myself .

Yesterday, even Dr Ali Abdel Karem who handling our Clinical Round for the past 2-3 days, an expert urological surgeon said that,to be at the highest level/specialist, we actually need to start from below going step by step upwards, we don't easily jump.Even he agreed that, there are NO shortcuts! He's such an impressive figure anyway, thus he sure knew better.He is an expert doing urological laporoscopy procedure with one port.

Dang!whre am i rite now? Am i the one who is climbing the stairs step by step or the other who just thinking of an easy way to escape?

Instantly, i thought that i had no choice right now, but to take every single things, even the most tiny lil thing in this medical field as a severely serious things.Though, i'm out of time right now, but,still hoping that i'll be a better student learner mastery all the the subjects and later on become a reliable doctor.(and to be a nice an sweet doctor also ) :P

InsyaAllah

Virus Badak

Soalan common yang dia selalu tanya fariez , "macam mana kelas hari ni?" 

dulu fariez semangat tau bercerita, kadang-kadang sampai dia tertido-tido waktu fariez cerita.

tapi sekarang da tak excited mcm dulu.takde dah nak cerita panjang-panjang.Fariez cuma jawab secara ringkas " okie je, semua okie" 

karang die tanya pulak "belajar apa hari ni?"

part gelabah la sikit nk menjawab.sebab mmg tak ingat.oh belajar apa eh tadi. bgus jugak kan dia tanya. so Fariez akan cepat-cepat bukak lecture notes.. and there i go like  "oooohh, da ingat hari ni belajar pasal apa " :)

As for today, the lectures are all about nose.Sangat banyak, dan doctor mengajar laju macam nak kejar apa je.fuh.hampir-hampir je berputus asa nk salin nota waktu lecture tadi. but glad that i'm not :')

so hari ni fariez belajar pasal rhinitis, radang hidung?selesema?heh.

Rhinitis ni ada yang disebabkan oleh allergic,allergis musim bunga dan allergic sepanjang tahun. Ada jugak yang disebabkan oleh specific organism (scleroma) , ada non-specficic (chronic hypertropy rhinitis), ada drug induce. Lecture last pasal hidung tersumbat (nasal obstruction)

Nasal obstruction selalunya adalah disebabkan oleh common cold.

back to 3 year ago, waktu tu fariez belajar microbiology, pasal virus.

Time tu kagum sangat dgn mahkluk Allah yang satu ni.Makhluk kecil yang dr mata fariez makhluk yang bijak dan pandai ambil peluang.Seram jugak bila tahu macam mana satu-satu virus menakluk sel-sel badan manusia. Kecik-kecik cili padi.

Anyway, masa tu dia semangat nak tahu pasal kaum keluraga virus.Fariez pulak semangat nak bercerita.seswai la kan.dalam banyak2 virus yang fariez cerita dekat dia. dia paling ingat virus yang menyebabkan common cold. Pantang selesema sikit, mesti die cakap," virus badak tgh maen-maen dekat hidung saya" virus badak? hehe. tapi itu 2 3 tahun lepas la..

Hari ni kebetulan belajar pasal common cold, so fariez tanya la kat dia. 

"cube teka virus apa yang menyebabkan common cold?!"

" Rhinoceros!!"

hahaha. nak pecah perut fariez ketawa! Rhinovirus la sayang.

diagnosis sendiri -case dermatology

Geli mat ? :D
(gambar-gambar ni Fariez kutip-kutip kt Google search)

rambling

Wehuu. Update blog sebelum pergi ke emedicine.com!

1st of all, sesiapa rasa diri dia jenis suka mengarah. suruh orang buat kerja itu ini. get lost please! sakit hati betul tau ada kawan perangai macam ni. bluerk! Kau da la nak suruh-suruh orang buat kerja , lepas tu tak reti pulak nak cakap elok-elok. Kau igt orang suka? Saya tak suka okie!!

Tapi Frz mcm tak kuat la, tak reti nak cakap taknak. pastu macam patuh je la...tp tak puas hati. mmg confirm tak ikhlas kan apa yang Frz buat tu.

Anyway, sekarang Fariez da start clinical round Dermatology. Kalau nk di comparekan department opthal dgn department dermato..pergh macam  langit planet pluto dgn bumi.Jauh beza! 

1st the building itself. Building dia sangat horror,i told ya, Even there is one place which look no different from kawasan pelupusan sampah, nyamuk lalat are everywhere.(sapa y penah tangok would understand what i mean, tak ramai kot perasan tempat tu, sebab it's really a hidden place). 2ndly bout the classes..erm  so-so je la.. Tapi sekarang da hari ke-5, tak sangka semua bende pun macam bearable je.i mean boleh je la telan semua bende. takde la rs sangat sangat stress ke ape.

but u know, apa yang bagus pasal derm?  even clinical round sampai 5 jam.. Clinical case sentiasa je ada. Tak pernah putus-putus. Satu case ada la sampai 2 -3 orang patient. Sehari nak dekat sepuluh orang patient jugakla yang kitorang tgk.A very good exposure should i say.

Clinical picture of the patients pun sangat obvious, no need history taking banyak -banyak , no need maneuver and all. palpate sana palpate sini takde okie.A very simple job, we just need to observe the patient, touch sikit-sikit (if the lesion is not contagious and if ada gloves) then we are done.muahaha. i'm loving it! ( Walaupun sedikit busan sebab ulang-ulang bende yang sama ) but still, it's wayyy to simple! to be compared with internal Med whose patient with presented with chest problem, heart problem, yada yada yada oh so complicated.

Hehe. Sapa perasan wishlist Fariez tahu la kot, that Fariez would like to continue her study in dermatology and become a Dermatologist. (if God willing, insyallah). even before entering the clinical year lagi, Fariez already had it on mind. But that time rasa mcm, No, i cannot quickly jump to my decision..bcause i've so many things to discover, mana tahu tiba-tiba minat O&G ke,Pead ke, surgery ke? uh surgery?? hahaha.

Thinking that i've to do pervaginal examination gave me a palpitation. Thinking that i've never did the per vaginal exam on a real patient, urgh double my palpitation!

So far O&G mmg tolak tepi. I do feel that, being a female doc, i'm more responsible untuk amik O&G. Tapi, macam mana ni? Fariez tak minat O&G.n seriously, i do feel bad bout that.(but, i not going to bear the risk (again) for choosing something that i'm not interested in. No way!) 

Pernah suatu hari tu,rasa sangat tertampar, bila this surgeon with other O&G doctors directly sound.. "Korang ni jangan la fikir nak senang je, nak jadi opthalmologist, dermatologist, lecturer.. " Dang! how they know i'm going to  choose derm? I still remember,masa tu, one of my friends terus made her mind nk jadi surgeon. haha, Fariez pun, mcm out of sudden became so very euthusiastic, n i was like  "baekla! saya bercita-cita nak jd pakar sakit puan" but the truth is, it's just a saying coming out without much thinking. 

Ohmy, da panjang frz type.*benti pergi dapur minum susu jap*

er. tak tahu dah nk sambung type apa.okiela, kapan-kapan ketemu lagi.da~

End of Opthal

hoyeah hoyeah. Da abes mid term Opthal!

(takyah baca yang bawah-bawah ni,takde pekdah untuk korang pun)

Sebelum exam takde la concentrate on study je.maen je game, tgk cerita, tido, jalan-jalan. Cumanya bila da habis exam boleh buat semua aktiviti tu dgn senang hati tanpa rasa bersalah.yeah! Selalu lepas exam mesti ada plan keluar makan, tapi exam kali ni tak plan pape.Fariez fikir nak duduk rumah berlatih jd houswife je kot. huahua.

ye ye je kan.. bila exam da habis, sibuk-sibuk nak ikut Tkay pergi Carefour. Padahal dalam poket ada bape keping je la duit 5 pound.Takpe kat carefour kan ada ATM kata hati. Nasib Fariez tak ikut kata hati.. last-last decide balik rumah jela, save duit.. takpun pergi rumah Sab.tgk ikan-ikan diorang. Dgr kate, sekarang diorang da aktif berkebun pulak.

Tapi last-last Fariez tak balik rumah pun, called Liza pastu Liza ajak makan dekat Kafe Asrama Mara. Wohoo~ ada ABC! Mana nak cari ABC dekat mesir? Di pendekkan cerita ondaway nk pergi Kafe tu jumpe Hani. Gembira.. i mean.. macam dulu-dulu.. lepas exam selalu hangout sama-sama. (Hani, Nana, Liza n Bob).
So Fariez rasa mcm, canteknya perjalanan hidup kita yang Allah da tentukan.

Sampai dekat Kafe tu , Nana ade sekali kat sana.End up, kitorang lunch bersama-sama. Sweet tak?hehe.

Jumpe Nawwar dgn Ona juga. Happy dapat jumpe housemate lama,(sarah je takde)..kongsi-kongsi cerita. Rindu laa kat diorang. aish.

Ona cakap, oh frz buat redvelvet eh, ona baca kat blog.Kalau takde org nak mkn, Ona ade je :) Masa ona ckp tu, Fariez rasa macam.. Hua~ Hari tu kek velvet Fariez tak larat nak habiskan, housemate Fariez pun sama. ( Azzah pun buat cake jugak : Carrot cake) Memang da terigat nak pergi rumah Ona nak hantar redvelvet tu.Serius! nyesal tak pergi je rumah Ona!

Fariez masuk dalam tupperware kek tu, bawak pergi rumah Bob je.Ada banyak lagi kat rumah. tak tahu nk kasi sape.boleh?

Tiba-tiba kan masa sembang-sembang, dapat sms dr Tkay. "Kak Fariez, hari ni ATM lapaa, dia makan (telan) card orang! " Gosh, alhamdulillah fariez tak ikut pergi carefour, kalau tak nak buat apa kat carefour dgn poket kosng. Bayar teksi pun tak lepas.