Showing posts with label emote. Show all posts
Showing posts with label emote. Show all posts

July 23, 2012

Hari-hari yang sunyi

still i've many lectures to revise but they got abandoned instead.bad girl i am.

i'm very aware that my final exam just hours ahead
but urgh...can't barely focus.
this tranquil environment is slowly suffocating  me to death.
i would prefer to call this house as a gua.seriously.
even i can hear the the clock ticking. tick tick tick..
sunyi gile, like i'm the only living creature in here.
secretly i wish nani/ika were here.
but nah. they got their own life to lead.

how "these people" managed to live alone i wonder?
and sampai hati tkay leave me without a word? :'(
for god sake, we need a community for a reason

i am so going to kacau kak fatin.No, i mean.
i'm going to go study with her.gtg!


February 15, 2012

ICU ward

Runtuh hati tengok pesakit-pesakit dekat ICU ward, they are critically ill like seriously. Pesakit tak kira usia, ada yang tua, ada yang masih muda, muda lagi dari Fariez.

Ada yang jantungnya tak mampu lagi berdegup, diberi bantuan pacemaker, yang tak mampu menyedut nafas, diberi bantuan mechanical ventilator. Sumber energy bukan lagi nasi ayam, ayam goreng, cuma cecair protein dan karbohidrat, dan jus buah yang masuknya melalui tiub-tiub melalui mulut atau hidung. Terbaring lemah je.

paling meruntun hati, ada satu female patient, very young punya masalah pernafasan dan saluran darah, kedua-kedua tangan dah gangrene. Esok lusa pasti  kena amputate. Apa makna hidup tanpa tangan? Macam mana nak siapakan makanan untuk anak-anak dan keluarga, nak buat kerja-kerja rumah, nak bekerja mencari sesuap nasi, nak tadah tangan untuk berdoa? :'( Ya Allah, beri ketabahan buat mereka, dan keluarga-keluarga mereka. Semoga mereka tergolong dalam orang-orang yang sbr..

pengalaman di ward ICU betul-betul mengingatkan hati ini.

beringatlah ketika sihat sebelum sakit, yakni lakukan lah perkara-perkara yang bermanfaat buat diri, dan masyarakat.ketika masih kuat dan berkemampuan.

Maha besar dan tak ternilai nikmat yang Allah dah beri, walaupun ianya hanya sepasang tangan..
Tapi sedikit sangat hati ni bersyukur, beryukur hanya bila dapat sesuatu, tapi jarang bersyukur dengan apa yang ada.

Jadikanlah kami hamba-hamba yang bersyukur....

update: pagi-pagi tadi, Fariez pergi ke ward yang sama, tercari-cari patient perempuan tu, Nurse cakap, dia dah meninggal. Al-Fatihah.

January 15, 2012

The weight of world on my back

Semalam sedih gila, sakit hati jugak. Tapi fariez manage untuk tak nangis, nangis jugak sikit sbnrnya. tapi tak terukla

Fariez ni banyak kekurangan. Banyak sangat-sangat sampai kadang-kadang tu rasa stress. Tapi fariez cuba calm down kan diri, untuk terima kekurangan diri sendiri. Selalu sangat fariez ingatkan diri, manusia ni mmg tak sempurna. Baik diri fariez, dan orang-orang lain.

Nak hidup bahgia, kena belajar menerima kekurangan diri sendiri dan menerima orang seadanya. So, fariez sedang balajar ke arah itu.  (Seriuosly, datang mesir ni bukan nak belajar medic je, kat mesir ni fariez belajar nak uruskan diri, belajar bergaul dgn orang, belajar menguruskan duit,belajar masak.. senang cerita, datang mesir ni adalah peluang untuk belajar memperbaiki diri )

Ada ke orang yang taknak berubah jadi lebih baik? Mestila semua orang nak berubah ke arah kebaikan.Tapi nak berubah bukan senang.Tambah-tambah bila bende itu berkait dengan behaviour kita benda-benda yang kita dah terbiasa buat, attitude kita benda yang kita suka dan tak suka. Bukan boleh berubah sekelip mata!

Semalam, ada orang point kelemahan/kekurangan Fariez. katanya " kenapa awak taknak berubah?" Macam halilintar menembak tepat ke hati ini. OMG, so u are so perfectla, nak tegur saya macam tu?Kot ye pun, tak reti guna ayat yang elok? Sy cuba untuk berubah la ni.eei, geram je rasa, time tu rasa nk point out semua perangai dia yang tak masuk akal, yang teruk-teruk. but managed untuk simpan je dlm hati.

Anyway, terima kasih atas teguran itu.
Teguran yang membina sungguh *mata ke atas, tangan dekat dada*

P/s: kritikan mmg diperlukan, tapi pernah ke kita rasa sayang dengan orang yang selalu mengkritik, kita lagi sayang orang y terima kita seadanya.

P/s : Fariez pun selalu juga kritik orang, sbb tu orang tak syg fariez?


December 18, 2011

scattered thoughts

i might just wasting my time, typing uncertainness thought in here.but i need to throw all these stress into words.If anyone notice, im starting to keep everything inside act cool konon, which unfortunately make me more or less like a time bomb - waiting sometimes to exploded.i'd rather not.

exam is just around the corner , and worst my menses too. so i really don't know which one is responsible for this increasing pressure in me. or maybe because of me being free from caffeine for months, and suddenly taking it make me flaring hot inside and giving me extra power to actually become more emotional.

Another things is, after me knowing  my housemate had already finished reading all the lectures i realized that this stress is doubling! ( my big regrets,i should pay the rent later ) Ah,she doing her study well while me..i hate to compare! helplessly hoping i can be even more motivated  after knowing someone had finished.

i wish i could be less ambitious, and just read these leisurely, and just pass the exam. to be honest, forensic not that hard, family medicine pun , one might pass the exam by just reading the text book. it's not like surgery, physic, or statistic or maths or whatsoever.

i wish i could be like guys, (absolutely not the nerd one) they usually go emotionless during exam, they dont cry they dont get homesick they don't crave for ice cream during exam.well at least that's what i observe.

i don't need to tell you, how bad i feel as a student, and as a servant to god. because i keep on praying for god to grant me an ease during exam and grant me a freaking good marks. talking bout adil, i'm sure it's a way far from adil.i'm not studying well but somehow asking Allah for such good grades? okie these really gonna make me crying my heart out :'( i should stop and start pulling oneself together again.



August 15, 2011

......

tak dapat jawab pun opthal tadi, buku teks opthal pulak hilang.
sedih. dah mgadu dekat mak, mak tanya akak tak study ke?

mestila study..tapi tak cukup lagi agaknya.
kena hafal semua benda betul-betul,
dan paham betul-betul.
jawab past year Questions banyak-banyak.

berkecamuk semua isi dlm kotak kepala  ni.

sedih.

July 24, 2011

rahsia

Lama tak rasa excited macam ni!! huwaaa~
Kalau la apa y Cik Mira bitau tadi betul, i mean,
mintak-mintak la apa yang Cik Miera cakap tadi betul.
jangan la bagi harapan palsu.

password: nazar

July 14, 2011

Kebaboom!

Yeah nice one FARIEZA!

I actually meletup hari ni.
padahal baru je nasihatkan diri untuk bersabar.
Siapa kata sabar tu senang?Siapa?

July 08, 2011

saya tak suka facebook

Fariez is so sad n unhappy with facebook

sbb tengok gambar Dely dengan gegurl yang laen hang out - hidup gembira macam zaman remaja! Ada Nanad, Pompom, Cikqa, Ciknad, Intan .Saya iri hati tahu.Tapi nasib la gambar blur hahahha.saya buat-buat tak nampak je, Takmo lah komen. Tak suka facebook!

And they going to have BBQ together with Irma, Syida, and the rest of my ABC sista this coming Saturday! Fariez tak penah dapat join diorang punye BBQ. sedey  :(

Lepas tu nampak Adib (2nd year) update pasal link blog kat WARM punye group! aisemennn..Fariez tak buat kerja minggu ni. Hari Jumaat sudah. Hari tu saya cakap kat Abid,nanti fariez belikan Choc untuk orang-orang yang update blog pasal WARM, Fariez janji nak bagi dekat Abid dekat kuliah. Tapi saya lupeeee!!! ampes la saya ni. Lepas tu saya takut nak cakap kat Abid,tak berani nak msg die, sampai sekarang tak tegur dia. Apelah yang Abid fikir pasal saya. mungkin Fariez perlu bagi alasan  exam? dan sibuk study? blehh Sorry Abid!

Dekat facebook Fariez tengok student medic yang laen dah start shift.Nadic is one of of them. Kaka dah balik dari Russia (Kaka ni best student masa kat MRSM Taiping, setiap sem kot 4 Flat, Uya pun da habis, Jalal from Indonesia akan balik Julai ni. Semua orang da habis.Fariez ada setahun lagi, sebab total up course Fariez is freaking 6 yrs . Tapi Jalal pesan dekat facebook chat " takpe Farieza, sikit aje lagi, Ko boleh punye laa "

Facebook ni, buang masa saya jela.  takmo kawan facebook. Deactivate setahun ! 

December 15, 2010

stop comparing

i hate myself to be compared!!! if only i can shout it out loud!
Are u heartless? don't ya see that i'm trying.I AM REALLY TRYING u know!
stop comparing me to someone else.

well..to speak in Arabic is obviously my biggest weakness.
and your negativity towards me is not helping to make me any better
but pissing me off

i don't know..sometimes i just feel like ripping people's spinal cord out.
or it's just me having an inferiority complex intensify by an insulting comparisons?

December 02, 2010

Be kind please.

1.Nothing i do is ever good enough.
and i am aware that i will never be able to make everyone happy and satisfied.
people will keep criticizes as much as they want,
and they can even hates for the way i am.
not that i care.cause hates will not break me (us) down, but yours.

2.Nothing i do is ever good enough,
and if someone ever appreciates the things that i'm doing.
Ignore me, n keep it to yourself. that's more that enough.more than enough.

3.i'm not longing for a huge success.
cause for a tiny lil success i will rejoice it as if it's a huge one.
(thanks Prof Dr Yaser )

4.i wanna live a life with a less drama.
because i've learn, that a drama-less life makes me happier.
much much happier.

5.if u have a secret, keep it to yourself!
 Don't blame others when u are the 1st one who blurt it out.
Yes, u are the one to be blamed!

Randomness of today timeline.

November 18, 2010

expect the worst

sometimes in our life, we decide to expect the worst.
sometimes we have no choice but to have a bad thoughts.

for me myself, when the worst thing that worried me much did happened, and came like a combo meals with all the bad thought that i previously had in mind,Gosh! for god sake it didn't make me feel any better!

expecting the worst,is just a superficial feeling, cause deeply inside, i know well how high my hopes n assumptions are. I want this particular things to be the best.Please oh bad thought thinking .pleasee.. just stay as thought, do not ever approach me in real life.

Now that i'm traumatize to know being in a worst situation in life is just another option.
gosh, how i realize expecting something worst to happen really does not work, perhaps for me.
It might help heighten the joy when something good happen,but it does not act like a cushion to comfort me when falling from high.

like seriously, mentally prepared for the worst outcome is not helping!

so what's next??

Allah, please guise me, please guide us.
Gave mercy for me, gave mercy for us.
strengthen my Iman, and those surround me.
soften their hearts and heart of me.

Forgive me for the bad thought i've,
clear my mind from any impurities

Allah,
Please help me ALLAH, for i'm  very weak.
for i'm still afraid of what others people would think of me.

November 01, 2010

Hello Inspiron.

i may sound a lil bit emotional so please ignore. or better do not read through this entry.

Yesterday, i'd spend more than 5 hours arguing with those egyption dekat Suk Komputer. urgh! i know it's not good to hate people, but i can handle it no more (some advise; jgn benci kat orang ) tapi tak boleh, rasa benci jugak.maybe i need a powerful detergent or clorox or something y boleh bersihkn hati. Bencil laaa. "Kenapa org arab ni suka menipu? kenapa eh??ape diorang igt duit haram tu bagus la?ee yuck!!"

Rasa traumatize betul, especially with those sweet talker Egyptian salesman. blwek!
tapi sekarang Fariez da okiela, totally free from adrenaline rush. The 5 hours of arguing worth me a new Black Inspiron Mini.I'd bought a gorgeous red Inspiron mini last week, and just discover that the keyboard is somehow arranged wrongly, straightaway i rush to the store where i bought it.

As the matter of fact,i'm really not sure how to respond with the salesman.Shud i give him a smile n complaint gently, or just come with a plain angry face( bcause he seem to gave me a rejected laptop,yup, that's purely what i had in mind ),but then i decide to act naturally.

The saleman actually laugh at me for complaining bout the laptop which triggers my anger.Die kate takde orang nk guna symbol ~ , symbol < ..mase tu, i was like, huh?? bukan ke awak sepatutnya gave me some empathy?or shud not? da la mende tu tak okie.pastu gelakkn fariez sbb guna those symbol. eeei!

Then,angrily i order him to fix it or else i want a new laptop. So there it goes.. 5 hours of trying to fix the laptop with me trying to convince him that he will never be able to fix it. u see ,obviously, the keyboard was manufacture wrongly! ( trust me,u do not want to know what exactly the problem of that freaking keyboard, because it's way too complicated to be explained n to be understand )

the time is ticking n the day is getting dark, and it's now the time for the store to be closed.. tapi tak siap2 jugak betulkan..da reinstall windows,software n all pastu fomat n re install again, what's more??huh.

well,thank god that finally he surrenders n give me a new laptop.

Lepas ni, if anyone wants to buy a Laptop kat Suk Komputer, i suggest, fikirla dua kali, it's better if u can buy it from somewhere else.somemore,kalau nk beli laptop, make sure u bring someone y mmg tahu pasal computer with u.

Tq ALLAH, i know i can never thank YOU enough.
Thanks, Aza, Nik, Nani, Fairuz n Tkay for being caring n understanding.

oh! one of my dreams comes true , baru sedar.

August 23, 2010

ignorance

lately, rasa diri ini ignorance.

malas nk amik tahu pasal orang.facebook da malas nak bukak.

nak sms,atau calling-calling pun malas.

nk tegur kawan-kawan kat ym pun malas.

kalau kawan-kawan sms,ym, or email..saya malas nk bukak, baca, ape ntah lagi nk reply.

tapi kalau call, insyallah sy angkat.(hp sy pun entah dekat mana)

rasa bersalah sikit.tapi sikit je.

sy da penat bersosial agaknya.

sy kini hidup dalam dunia sy.sendiri-sendiri.

dalam lingkungan kecil family,kekasih, dan kawan rapat.

oh lupa pulak, sekaang sy busy dgn harimau jinak.busy nurturing him.

sayang sangat kat harimau jinak ni. meow .aum


Ps:mungin ini yang Barak rasa??

July 19, 2010

Periventricular Leukomalacia

Kadang-kadang susah jugak nk pikir tittle ape y nk ditulis kat satu-satu entry.Nah amik, ntah ape pun fariez tak tahu, copy n paste from review of orthopedic,page 208 ye kawan-kawan.MRI of patient with Cerebral Plasy will reveal Periventricular Leukomalacia. (whateva it is, i better ignore it)

Isnin already, lagi dua hari nak exam OSCE ortho.gila.ntah ape yang Fariez da study. i just wonder am i the only person yang cam depress sgt sbb banyak bende yang tak tahu.tambah-tambah lepas kene repeat paper surgery,self esteem jatuh merudum kot.ah.ahhhh.

nak lepaskn perasaan sebenarnye.tgh geram sgt.benci..nape pergi lama sangat.n pergi tempat yang takde coverage! penat da dgr kakak angkat kesayangan awak duk angkat call. nasib la die kurang berperasaan, asal sy call je, die pun angkat..kmslm la kat kakak angkat awak nnt.haih.cepatla balik!

satu lagi bende yang bermain-main kat kepala ni, pasal balik.. bukan la excited sgt nak balik Msia.. tapi rsau.. pasal tiket balik semula ke sini. Dr Wafa cakap kene balik seminggu bfore the class start (for the repeat paper).da confirm ke start 1 okt? kang Fariez beli tiket 23 hb, tiba-tiba kene balik awal lagi ke, tak pun, tak pun tiba-tiba repeat paper tundala, ape la..(haish, sabarjela dealing ngn egyptian ni).bila la Fariez nk pergi tukar tiket ni..da bape kali da tukar2 date..kalau free takpe..( shopping kasut pun best, dulik ah, pas setel tiket nk beli kasut baru!)

this is the end of rumbling session. see u in the next episode! da~

June 11, 2010

sakit hati.ade ubat?

dua tiga hari kebelakangan ini.. fariez acquire satu hobi baru..
lepas ni kalau nk buat biodata, ruang hobi tu fariez nak tulis : sakitkan hati org.

ade dua tiga org yang concern tanya, apsal ko Emo sgt ni.
PMS ke?suka hati je.ape igt pms je ke boleh buat pempuan emo.

Just because you've been hurted in the past
doesn't mean you have the right to hurt people who's being nice yo you.


:(  i just can't help it...
rasa bodoh sangat. bende kecik macam ni pun tak boleh handle.
urggghhh!

i guess, i need a breakaway! 15 june come fast pleasee...

oo da igt..obat hati ada 5 perkaranya...


May 31, 2010

left me alone with my thought

i guess it's normal to have an irrational thought when u are not in a good mood.

(geee, geram gile dgn arab ni, fyi, as am starting to write on here, the arab kat floor atas, tgh cuba pecahkn rumah die.batu bata boleh pulak jatuh dekat balkoni tempat ampain bju rumah fariez! the batu are huge one!geram nyer.da la batu tu hempap pokok bunga fariez.double my geram. but i can do nothnig. i dont even dare to look at it, as im afraid those batu kene kepala.huh...ape da.boleh pulak ko campak2 je batu tu kebawah ni kn.bijak)

huh.bile tgh takde mood,rs macam fragile gila,even a tiny thing is possible to trigger my anger.pastu rs cm nk marah je.bluek.pastu rase nak dgr satu album meteora ulang2 bnyak kali..okie la tu, daripada berfikir nk buat bende2 yang pelik.. like my friend,she did ask me: nape aku rs cam nk terjun bangunan, rase nak keluar dr kete mase kete tgh gerak laju2..T_T ' dasyat. ( i not sure actually, can this be categorizes as irrational thinking?aa.who cares anyways,korang bukan nye behavioral psychologist)

talking bout psycology..has anyone had a test of being bipolar?(actually, that's one of irrational thinking that i have) i thought that im insane.cannot barely have a well of mind thinking.so i did took a bipolar test..thank god im not bipolar.im just having a mild depression.i guess.

bile nk dekat exam je mood swing.grr..suspected culprit behind this swinging mood: STRESS kot

sorry for taking your time to read this crappy things of me,deep in my heart,i pray that your day ahead will be much better than me.thanks for reading.

oh yes, if anyone of you would like to gimme a free counsel.u can PM me at YM: connie_cayang.
(u are not allowed  to leave any comment on this entry)

update: da okie da hilang da mood geram ngn arab, sbb isteri bawab datang sapu2 balkoni.

May 22, 2010

Senyumlah.

Boleh ke nk meluahkan perasaan kat sini??

Hari ni Fariez start Posting Orthopedic,kat Hospital Nariman,tak la jauh sgt, tp jauh jugak la, sbb selama ni, posting kat hopsital2 yang boleh je nk pegi jalan kaki.Hospital Nariman ni kene naek teksi,3 egyption pound kene bayar.pg td pakcik teksi mintak 4 egyption pound.Hospital tu ade dua bangunan, satu bangunan baru, and bagunan lame..bangunan lama tu, mmg nampak old-school sgt,macam bangunan bersejarah..nnt bile berkesempatan Fariez share pic Hospital tu kat sini eh.

Selalunya kalau hari 1st posting,kelas start lambat, Doc datang lambat.. tapi kat Orthopedic department tadi, Doc datang awal,Lecture start sharp at nine, siap amik kedatangan lagi!Mase amik kedatangan tu Doc sebut nama sorang2, fariez kalau time-time sebut name ni, mmg fariez concentrate je dgr, takut nama terlepas, tak pun nnt sume org pandang2 kita kalau kita tak sedar Doc panggil nama.Bile turn name Fariez( die pagil ikut urutan),die skip, kire die tak sebutla nama Fariez.aahhh da cuak da..mungkin die tertinggal.harap2 die ulang balik  nama2 tu. waktu die ulang, still takde nama Fariez..

Nak tahu ape y come out 1st to my mind, rase macam..ke fariez tak layak masuk Orthopedic, kene repeat Surgery dulu baru leh masuk. yelah, Orthopedic kan, bawah surgery department..sedey sgt mase tu..n panic.hahaha. kalau la korang tgk muke frz masa tu..(nik pndng belakang mse tu,ntah2 die pasan muka panik fariez )

Alhamdulillah,the lecturer pas2kan kertas kedatangn, rupanya ade je nama fariez kat kertas tu, siap da tick present lagi, just die tak sebut td.haih, kasi cuak sama wa ja la!

Sepanjang kelas td, alhamdulillah takde rasa mengantuk atau tertido, itu yang penting, sebab kalau fariez ngntuk or tdo dlm kelas, mesti balik rumah Fariez takde mood.tak pun rase cm serabut sgt-sgt.I hate being a sleepy head in class.(tht's why fariez akan make sure tdur cukup sebelum gi kls) so hari ni mood sepatutnye okie la kn,sbb tak tdo kat kelas..Tapi still, fariez rs cm something..cam tak bersemangat, cam malas nk buat pape.nk layan persaan je.

Tak tahu la nape..pikir2 balik.. maybe sebab banyak kerja-kerja fariez yang tertangguh kot. kerja-kerja yang melibatkan orang laen..

1.taknk aa cte kat sini..kang ade y mara fariez :P

2.Surat nk apply taknk repeat Surgery. Anas suruh Fariez buat, (bgus betul ade student representative yang mcm ni, die yang rsau lebih kat anak-anak buah die) tapi, Fariez tak reti buat.. :( Anas suruh contact Zack,(nath sape la budak ni, Fariez tak kenal) Anas kate buat la surat dgn die, pastu nnt Anas tolong ckpkn kat Doc, Perhaps tula yang Fariez faham, tapi Fariez contact Zack, Zack ckp siapkan surat,die da siap da die punye, esok kite jumpe Doc sama2..ala..malas nya!

3.yang ketiga, Haritu kan Fariez handle Fariez Pengisian majlis Seminar Wanita, sepatutnya Fariez kene hantar email kat peserta-peserta Seminar Wanita hari tu,Ni arahan Puan Zakiah.Kat email tu Fariez kene attachkan power point penceramah.supaya peserta dapat much benefit la dari seminar tu,one third of the email da ade kat fariez,and the rest ade kat Pn Zakiah. Tapi malasnye la nk contact Pn Zakiah nk mintak email tu..da sebulan lebih kerja ni tertangguh.haih~

4.yang ke empat ni kerja bertangguh melibatkan diri sendiri. sebab kn emosi tak stabil, Baju2 fariez da penuh satu bakul. T_T bile nk basuh?

5.Minggu ni fariez tak call mak lagi.selalu tak penah miss,hari jumaat je mesti call.Fariez cam tertanya-tanya kat diri sendiri jugak,"apsal akak reluctant sgt nk call mak nih?" banyakla alasan yang fariez cipta sendiri unuk sedapkan hati..antara nya,busy so tak sempat call mak..tapi lepas tu dgr hati fariez cakap, "busy konon, tdo cukup je,boleh lagi blogging,bukak facebook, chatting...." T_T teruknya rasa..hari tu ye ye je Fariez cakap kat Fairuz, kalau kita tak call Mak lebih dari seminggu,cam derhaka kot. (ni sape ntah yang ckp kat Fariez)tapi serius, dulu fariez rs cm, teruknya org2 yang tak call parents die,tak igt family ke ape.Sekaang? i am the person yang teruk tu!

Smalam , pergi talk Idris Tawfiq, die cakap bgus nye request kitong nk dgr talk pasal success la ape la, die kate kat Msia dulu, Students are more interested in BGR topic..i was like, ape bende la tu..kuno nye aku ni tak tahu..At last Idris Tawfiq kate die nk jugak ulas sket pasal BGR. Rupe-rupenya BGR is Boy Girl Relationship..OOooOoo...panjang o kitorng sume dalam Conference Hall tu. Ape yang die cakap did touch my heart,(ala, org sensitive mcm fariez ni, ko cakap la sikit pun, mmg fariez easily touch).Entahla, tapi lepas dgr Idris Tawfiq punye talk, fariez keluar Conference Hall tu smbil tanye diri sediri.."Am I doing the Right Things??".....and fariez still lagi tertanya2 dekat diri sendiri.."Am i?? "

Tiba-tiba rase mcam lagi suka kalau Allah bagi dugaan selalu..sebab Mase tu la,Fariez mmg pagi petang mintak pertolongan die je.. Bila da tak Di Uji, selalu nye lupa.. T_T

Aaa.da pnjng lebar da...thnks for reading taw! chaow!

January 26, 2010

being true

i need  a guidance. to tell me what is right and what is not.
sigh.

why am i doing things that im do not wanna do?
 
order a hot choc instead a cup of coffee.
keep silent instead of happy chatting
hidding instead of showing
medic instead of maths
sleeping instead of playing 
runaway instead of listening..

being alone instead of being in crowd.

okie,paksa diri turun maen netball.have to.
chiow~





 



January 01, 2010

010110

:) ( senyum plastik )

fariez kne kuat!!
~

June 11, 2009

Life is short !!

Betapa hidup ini sementara.
ntah sampai bila nyawa yang ALLAH pinjamkan ini akan di ambil semula.
lemah diri bila merasa kan saat-saat kematian yang kian hampir.
takut..dgn dosa-dosa yang akan tarik mengheret msuk ke neraka.


kawan-kawan, maaf kan salah silap fariez.
maafkan fariez atas hak sahabat2 yang frz tak tunaikan.
maafkan fariez. atas bahasa-bahasa yang kasar dan meyakitkan hati.

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syahdu rase tgh malam ni..ade sesuatu yang meruntun jiwa.
meyentak perasaan yang selama ini selesa.


Ya ALLAH , selamatkan mereka.

Ya ALLAH, selamatkan mereka.

Ya ALLAH, selamatkan mereka.

Allah lebih meyayangi nya ..Saudara Ammar bin Zulkifli , telah di panggil "pulang".

Al-fatihah.