August 24, 2011

August 22, 2011

our last!

The momentum has fall a bit though.You see, I'm no different from an ultraman with blinking red light.
but to realize that nothin in this world happen by chances, Trustfully, there must be an effort behind. Thus i must not giving in.never. 

August 21, 2011

Dgn dunianya

salam. hye!

esok saya ada paper derma (final) 10 pagi esok to be exact.
tapi seriously, i'm not ready. not yet. teruk dan mengada kan.
padahal ada 15 lecture je. baca laju-laju bape jam pun dah boleh habis.
mengadanya nak mengantuk la, nak tido la apa lah.

why la sy mcm ni.. T_T

Now. sy dalam dillema. Nak tido atau tak?
simple thing pun cannot decide.

Mengada!

August 15, 2011

......

tak dapat jawab pun opthal tadi, buku teks opthal pulak hilang.
sedih. dah mgadu dekat mak, mak tanya akak tak study ke?

mestila study..tapi tak cukup lagi agaknya.
kena hafal semua benda betul-betul,
dan paham betul-betul.
jawab past year Questions banyak-banyak.

berkecamuk semua isi dlm kotak kepala  ni.

sedih.

August 14, 2011

Doa

August 13, 2011

Impian

ku punya rancangan,
untuk pergi tinggalkan 'dunia' ini
mulakan baru semuanya.

August 10, 2011

wordless wednesday #3


Flow in Psychology


Csíkszentmihályi identifies the following ten factors as accompanying an experience of flow
  1. Clear goals. Moreover, the challenge level and skill level should both be high.
  2. Concentrating, a high degree of concentration on a limited field of attention (a person engaged in the activity will have the opportunity to focus and to delve deeply into it).
  3. loss of the feeling of self-consciousness, the merging of action and awareness.
  4. Distorted sense of time, one's subjective experience of time is altered.
  5. Direct and immediate feedback (successes and failures in the course of the activity are apparent, so that behavior can be adjusted as needed).
  6. Balance between ability level and challenge (the activity is neither too easy nor too difficult).
  7. A sense of personal control over the situation or activity.
  8. The activity is intrinsically rewarding, so there is an effortlessness of action.
  9. A lack of awareness of bodily needs (to the extent that one can reach a point of great hunger or fatigue without realizing it)
  10. Absorption into the activity, narrowing of the focus of awareness down to the activity itself, action awareness merging.
Not all are needed for flow to be experienced.

(copy paste frome wiki)

August 09, 2011

Great People Sleep Less?

So sekarang 5.21 am.

Sepatutnya Fariez tido skng. sebab semalam tido lewat pukul erm 1 pagi mcm tu (tertido sebenarnya) pukul 3 dah bangun semula untuk sahur dan aktiviti sewaktu dengannya. tweeting termasuk sekali.dah 2-3 hari mcm ni.

Sepatutnya tido pukul 11 mlm, bangun pukul 3 pagi, sahur dan kemudian sambung tido lagi.Ini for the sake of tido yang cukup. Lepas SPM. Fariez sangat particular pasal tido.I need at least 4 hours of undisturbed sleep.If ada org kacau, i'll take another cycle of 4 hours sleep again. Over kan.

Sebab dah serik, masa form 4 n form 5 selalu stay up gila-gila, sampai subuh.Energetic je masa study, sbb mmg semangat study. Tambah-tambah ada geng. Geng ABC yang difitnah selalu stay up malam-malam n buat ketupat(if only u understand what ketupat means). mulut jahat mana ntah y buat cerita! Padahal kitorang study kot. anyway, maybe sbb doa-doa org teraniaya ni Allah makbulkan we got straight As instead.Alhamdulillah. Eceh. mengimbau kenangan pula.

Tapi mmg terigt pun kat kat Taiping, pagi-pagi waktu mcm ni. Sejuk. Fariez punya bilik tingkat atas. tapi tak tahu la kenapa kalau stay up duk dekat floor bawah (surau floor bawah) sampai Nani pun merajuk,Sbb frz tinggalkn die study sorang-sorang dekat atas :P . port study, meja menghadap tingkap yang nampak hutan-hutan.Tak ramai y mampu bertahan stay up sampai pagi, tapi ramai yang bangun pagi-pagi untuk study.

ah, itu cerita lama.Fariez sbnrnya terpengaruh dgn artikel dekat sekolah, ada tampal board tangga between Koop n Pejabat (Ahmad boestamam). Ada satu artikel pasal tidur. Dia cakap tidur tak semestinya cukup 6-8 jam (like what i used to believe) It's all depends on the person her/himself, if u are a growing baby, yes u need extra sleep. Ada yang cukup je tido for 4-5 hours and it's more than enough.Not that inspiring me to stay up. but later in the article.

It was mention that many great people in the world sleep lesser than a normal person used to. and because of their real enthusiasm toward things that they've been doing  some of them were staying awake for even days. to mention some name: well, i barely can recalled the names, but Frz igt ada gmbr  Albert Einstein & Sir Isaac Newton together with the article.

So that makes me thinks, if i'm enthusiastic enough towards the subject, i may end up reading/studying it for hours not to fear of losing focus or get bored of it. It's logic to me at that particluar time la. Fariez masa tu form 1.hingusan lagi, but i tell ya my ambitions were HUGE !

ikut kira-kira Fariez masa tu, if tido 7-8 hours per day, 56jam.maka dalam seminggu adalah 2 hari lebih kau tido aje. kalau tido 4 jam only, i'm going to have an extra one day. Logik? Logik pada akal Fariez.so i did practice doing that, sleep less than a normal person.and i've been an extraordinary once. Nak tahu what i get out of that?

Best student untuk 2-3 subjek.1st place dalam class straight 3 tahun.more? 1st place dalam batch  masa form 1 while 2nd dalam batch during form 2 and form 3. ( it was a handsome Indian boy who took my place) i was his big enemy since then.haha. He's doing medic jugak. uh, macam korang kesah.

Anywayy, the biggest success masa tu, bila fariez was awarded as a best student peringkat daerah Manjung (untuk sekolah harian) :') of course ramai lagi yang cemerlang, far better than me from sekolah berasrama. Pelik jugak.may be i've extra sport activities kot, netball here n there, kumpulan nasyeed sekolah,melukis for anti dadah every year, lontar peluru & rejam lembing , yeah maybe that's why. or maybe I was just lucky. Not? Allah know best.

But the down side of it, i'm not good in socializing with people. i don't know how to entertained people or make friends.Jarang sangat hangout, outing sama-sama dengan kawan. I care more bout myself, i dont bother myself to wait for others. Pergi dewan makan sorang-sorang pun tak kisah. senang cerita i'm leaving i'm own life. ada jela, kawan tapi tak macam isi dengan kuku.oh ya. Asmaliza n Azulainey study group dgn Fariez. They help me so much.

Nah, itu cerita klasik. Ada apa dengan barang y lepas?

Sekarang i'm living more or less a normal life. like majority of community did. Study when i feel like studying, or study when the subject caught my interest, study when exam is just near the corner. Watch movie, RM ,drama, when i feel like doing so, blogging, blogwalking & tweeting when im boring, did some religious & motivational reading in between. Sometimes i play games to kill the times and i'm on skype most of time.Make friends, pastu hangout & go shopping if i've extra money.The upmost important thing is i've a proper sleep (with light off ).

So kalau orang cakap, belajar medic tak cukup tido.Sure, I've no objection against that fact, tapi me myself to be very honest, for the past (almost) 5 years, i had enough sleep and even (most of the time) terlebih-lebih tidur..Lemak betul saya ni. (tipu la kalau cakap tak myesal, jeles (sikit) dengan org y mantob gila study pagi ptg siang malam (housemate sy le tew). but yeah, this is what i choose.

Sequale nya tak tahu la bagus ke tak life macam ni.For the time being it's STRESS-less.
but it's not so PRODUCTIVE as well.Dalam 24jam sehari nak dibahagikan dengan semua macam kerja,(kerja?) berapa sangat lah masa yang tinggal untuk study?

wah, panjangnya  type. tak sedar okie. Konklusinya, I need my beauty sleep like right now!! (since fariez baru tidur 2 jam).

Taa Darling~

August 08, 2011

Seminggu berlalu

Hari berlalu pantas dalam bulan Ramadhan!
Kalau terleka pasti tertinggal.
-Frz-

Jangan dipersia-siakan nya..
andai ini yang terakhir kali..
-Fruz-

August 05, 2011

Of Ramadhan

kalau lah blog ni umpama diari, mesti da penuh berentry-entry cerita fariez tulis. Semua cerita gembira, suka,cerita kejayaan, harapan, sakit hati, benci, kecewa mengisi ruang blog ni. Mungkin boleh tulis semua bende lepas privatekan blog. Nak privatekan blog ni soon.or mungkin blog ni akan ditinggalkan dan berupdate dan Fariez buat blog baru. tengoklah macam mana.

Bulan Puasa orang selalu cakap banyak dugaan.. kalau nak pikir dugaan makanan, eleh apa la sangat. Fariez bersyukur jugak la,sebab sekarang ni takde nafsu nak makan sangat. Berbuka takat masak simple-simple pun dah gembira .Kalau kat Malaysia, semua jenis air kalau boleh nak beli, air tebu, air cendol, soya, air kelapa, Milo ais.semua pun nak beli. Kuih macam-macam jenis, paling2 mesti ada murtabak, karipap, popia.

sekarang rasa sgt bersyukur semua benda tu takda, no such things as bazar ramadhan dekat Mesir.Lalu nafsu makan  lebih terkawal dan berat badan jugak. Alhamdulillah.

Setakat hari ni, setiap hari Fariez bangun sahur.bangun sahur sendiri dan bersahur pun sendirian. Housemate fariez semua jenis tak bersahur. kuat betul diorang, tapi rugila, bersahur kan dapat pahala.Paling-paling pun bangun untuk minum air dan makan sebiji kurma.Bangun sahur awal sikit sempat la nak buat solat sunat.Kalau orang-orang y ada jemaah mungkin la selalu Qiam. Fariez bila kira bape kali je bangun untuk solat sunat tgh malam. Sorang-sorang mmg tak kuat. Tapi bila ramadhan macam takda alasan je kalau tak solat sunat.

Sebab tu selalu rasa berdebar-debar setiap kali datang Ramadhan.takut jadi orang yang rugi, takut ramadhan berlalu tanpa kesan. Takut kalah dengan diri sendiri. Sebab before ni , kalau tak kuat mungkin la sebab terhasut dengan bisik-bisik syaitan, sekarang kalau malas, kemalasan itu la diri kita sebenar.  Malu kan..Malu dengan diri sendiri. Malu dengan Allah.

Tahun ni berazam nak khatam dua kali. Tapi hari ke 5 puasa, baru berapa juzu' je y sempat baca. Sedih :'( Penat Fariez pikir macam mana orang boloeh khatam 2 3 kali.Fariez rasa mcm tak mampu je. Semalam tido dalam perasaan kecewa dan sedikit putus asa. Mimpi pulak dasyat-dasyat. Kuat betul pengaruh perasaan dengan mimpi.

Ramadhan kali ni, banyak spend masa dekat rumah je. Alhamdulillah untuk tu, kurang lagi dugaan. Takde la berpeluh menahan bahang ala-ala padang pasir. Duduk dalam bilik berkipas lagi. Tapi dugaan lain pulak.. nak study...oi, bukan main susah.

Oh ya, mak pun senasib dengan Fariez. Bersahur sorang-sorang. berbuka pun sorang-sorang. Sebak betul hati dengar. Mak memang la buat mcm tak kisah je.tapi kita yang dengar ni. luluh hati kot. Fariez bukan lah anak baek sgt selalu buat mak susah hati,adik-adik pun tak puas hati dengan fariez, tambah-tambah pasal kes nak kawin.ntahla. tapi bla jadi mcm ni fariez rasa geram pun ada. Kak idah tengah cuti, kenapa tak balik temankan mak dekat rumah? Mak kata, semua kan da besar, mak pun taknak paksa-paksa balik rumah.

Laju je Fariez cakap, "kalau mcm tu, kakak tak nak balik la cuti ni" dengan nada bergurau.

"Eleh, dekat mata tu da terbayang-bayang Malaysia.. Taknak balik konon. Mak dengan Ebob amik dekat KLIA nnt..."

August 02, 2011

Pushing self motivation button

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb